though building a realtionship for me wasnt easy,ive tried my very best to be a good gf.
who is totally sick of failure.
in what?
what you call love.
its true.
perharps,love was a stoopid lil thing few years bck.
even wen i ferst get togada with him,2 years ago.
but things started out to be serious when we fall in love.
by the things he/she do.
the care and conceern shown.
for me,mine wasnt easy.
to get over and stay strong though there were obstacles between family.
as usual,wen ferst started out,hp bill was high n stuff.
introducing to fams.'getting to know each other.
i got over all of it alrdy.
after 2 years.
yes,two years.
i din regretted i swear.
cos i was all over you.
so it grew stronger as the time flies.
though i admit many many obstacles we faced thru.
break ups here and der.
all i manage to pull thru.
yet todae,i feel so lonely,so so lonely.
i dun know why im feeling this wae.
but one thing for sure,the feeling sucks.
cos wen i miising that sumone whom ive gone thru 2 years of my life with,the situation doesnt permits. cnt see you is the biggest sadness in my life.
issit becos im period im thinking too much?
idk.
i tried to understand.i may appear calm wen i msg you.
but inside me,no one knows.
cos w/o you entertaining me being by my side,i feel lonely.
mum's not here.
people in the house doing their own stuffs.
wad m i doing?
was supposed to be chatting with you,msging you, yet im feeling so so down.
so sensitive.
maybe in the past time,i would have alrdy talk to sum guy frens i have out der.
but im no longer the old me.
i know the difference between true love n just infectuation.
cos i know you dun like it,i dun do all dat shiit.
yet im here waiting patiently for you.
for you to come and mit me. as per normal.
i want the old situation bck.
no werk.
easy meet ups.
i badly want it bck.
ut i know,onli time will gimme bck that days.
in the mean time,i have to wait.
and waiting is never a pleasure.
my heart ache.
cos im missing you.
it feels as if part of me is gone.
sorry for being too pampered.
i cnt help it.
and i cnt help by missing you hell lots.
& i cnt help it by loving you.
oppps.i cnt stop loving you.
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