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2010-04-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

not active here! (: just active at some where else. ask me personnally yah! (;
take care people take care blogger! (:bubye~!

2010-03-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

ill be back when i feel like it okay? for now, ill be away!!!
take care readers!

2010-02-11T13:15:00.005+08:00

im like so free right. i felt like changing my blogskin. and so i did. i was so bored with the old one so i decided to change. been wanting to change since idontknoewhen, but today i was being so supper the rajin to have chage it into a simpler one. i was thinking of changing my link as well cos idk why either but after giving a very long thought about it, i wante to but i have one main problem, idk what should i name my blog so yah, mite as well tunggu untill i have a new name for it then ill change la ehk. see my modd. so shall stick to the same old one for now k.so im resting at home while playing internet, changing my blogskin, watching mtv at the same time, and trying to figure out how to put my pic and the god dam music video in umpteen times but takle? how? if by the end of the day takde means....aku malas la..and nampak nye i shall leave it that way. haha. aku kan dasar pemalas. (:

and so i did write a shoutout saying i miss shatec in fb, and i realis that my other classmates miss shatec and our class too! i seriously miss the times we had to study. camwhore in class. sleep in class. eat in class. buy drink at vending machine. buy food at the banquet stall. go factory to eat. deciding where to eat. go west mall play arcade. last min study at mac. so many many thing la! i miss all that! can i have it again! rindu rindu. and i miss the times baby fetch me all the way from tamp to bedok. our sch days. (: hehe. OH YAH! though i have wish garett yesterday, and bro, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY GARRETT LIM MY ANG KONG BROTHER!! so old already uh! hehe. (: youre miss la bro.

i was looking thru some old pictures and realise i was freaking fat last time can? eww. gemok shey. trying to maintain now. ): i miss the old times. family outings and stuff.. i wish i can go thru that again. before i move off, baby pls come home soon.

2010-02-10T17:55:00.002+08:00

i need my man here badly. i haven been feeling good since last week. i had cough and headache a week back. but sun and mon i have been getting worst. mon i had fever. the thing is, i went to work early in the morning normally, with a heavy head. i thought it was normal for me. as i have been having a normal headche for the past one week. but the thing is i whenever i have headache i eat medicine ill be fine. but the next day, ill get the same thing again the next day. so monday i head off to work and had to go back during lunch time. it happen for tuesday as well cos my fever went up again. so Madam ask me to go home eat medicine and see doc again today. so wen i went to see doc today, didnt do me any good. he ask if i have asthma. i didnt have any illness since young. so why now right? and if fever doesnt go dwn by fri, i have to do XRAY. and if it go worst, ill have to be admitted to the hosp. i dont want. im so scared. so much for wanting to be sick-free. i badly wan my baby. i need him by my side now. i hate it. i hate this feeling i have now. ): he said he scared i might have lung infection. gosh. why say all the things that im so freaking scared off. late mum use to have lung problem. does dat mean im gonna have one as well? i dont want! can i get well please? haish. i dont want. i dont want. baby please come home. meet me. see me. im scared.. ):

2010-01-31T20:40:00.004+08:00

currently watching the samsudins? hehe. quite funny though. sme stoopid yet lame joke they have. "saye jalan dulu ehk" and he replied" jalan dul alan sekarang uh." haha. its funny though to me. okay never mind la lau tak funny. (:

ive got like two more weeks in reservations. meaning two more weeks till i go over to blue potato. alroght no comments bout that. i just cant wait to finish up the last bit of attachment after sooo soo long. had my off day yesterdae. so head over to town yesterdae with babylove. had the greatest time ever. and for once we feel like tourist kn baby. padahal its only in town. we feel like we're tourist. been quite some time since we last walk all over town. so i even had to buy new sandals cos i was worn out sia! made a wrong move by wearing my newly 1 day heels. (: shame on me. thats why i told baby i goota feeling....that im gonna buy new sandals today. haha! so indeed i was right all along. so i bought 2 in the end. blackk and brown. left with buying one brown beg that i love so much! which gonna cost almost 100 bucks. but that gotta wait sia. shit. i almost bankcrupt not even for two weeks!alright,so back to wad i was saying, me and baby head over to town.

as usual he fetch me from home. then we head over to town by mrt. didnt want to drive cos i said it gonna cost alot la. so save sikit la. head over to ion swensens to have main course each and have our dessert buffet! for the second time! yayness! i was supperbb! so we walked ard ion, then we saw few things that we love so much. then over to far east, then to tangs then over to 313 then to orchard central? but we practically walk from one end to the another end la pasal wore FLATS! haha. so even if we did not literally enter the shopping center and see all the shop we did walk pass all of the shopping center and talk about every single thing! hahah! so cute. been a while kn. so while we were walking at orchard central or was it 313 ? , baby found this like pathway over to centerpoint, and mind you, the place was dam nice so we start taking pictures and i feel its been a while jugak that we took quite alot of picx togada! mcm we're back to our normal self. and for the picture above, i buy for baby tau the baju! nice right. so cute. he never had like nice blue top so i thought it would look great on him and indeed it was. (: padan with my dress. and thanks effaah for selling it to me! i so love the dress you know. unfortunately i wanted to buy it at the blog itself it was sold out! sad! thanks alot!

baby and i had a few things in mind and have quite a number of things in mind to buy. i so love the guess watch baby. the gold guess watch. can i have it pls?! so beautiful...and i want that brown beg please the guess or the other one will do..and i want that tshirt as well can? gosh, i cnt continue cos it will be a whole looooooong list you know! gosh. but i already keep it in mind. and always will okay. (; baby now in camp im so missing him already... didnt get to meet him cos i was at work.. so sad.. starting work at 12..meaning i can have enough sleep today.. (:

i wanna rebond my upper part of my hair and make it wavy at the bottom. but im scared my hair length not long enough to make it look nice and i think i should keep it longer and do what i think i should do..or shud i just rebond it as usual? but i wan something different can? mcm fickle minded gitu aku. so how kirekn? must wait a while more la ehk.. any ideas people? hehe,..im glad i bought back my asience shampoo! its still the best! best that suits me afterall! lembut and doesnt make your hair look fluffy! i like and i love! certain things that you have shoudnt change at all cos its the best for you. i think it is. same goes for baby (: m i done here? haha! i think i am. enjoy the pictures! (: take care people!

2010-01-24T12:13:00.002+08:00

hola! im back la shey! haha. mcm maner nye org nak bace blog aku je. haha. ok what am i saying? (: im back. its sunday and im rotting at home with fam and babylove. i love this situation. i love rotting at home with my loved ones. love them to bits! (: have breakfast like usual.then we usually talk about things. and today topic is what im doing la after attachment. the prefer me to continue and hake degree instead, but as you know like what i already think i wanna work instead. financial wise not stable mah. but they always say cik eein still have your money. but idk la. i just dont think so. i rather work, then after that save and take my own savings ave my own family next time. if gotta chance to upgrade a lil on my studies, why not. stll deciding. but one thing for sure, i wanna work first. im alrdy gonna send out my resume this comming months for Marina and Sentosa. hoping will get a place soonafter i end attachment, the rest of them have money to releks a while before continue studying or start work, but i have my own responsibility in my life that i have to handle rather then relaxing ard. yes thats my future plan.

im alrdy in reservation for the past week, and time seemed to pass real fast. soer or later without me knowing its gonna be my last two months in the hotel. i cnt wait tor the day to come. so back to yesterdae, its was the 23rd as usual our lovebird day. we head over to suntec eng wah to catch Santau. freaky i tell you! disusting la sia! plus makcik and pakcik in the theater bising nak mapos like i cannot concentrate! like what the hell! haha! then we head over to compass point to have pizza! and buy for nenek thosai! while walking around suntec, i saw this shop selling HEELS,FLATS AND SANDALS that i loveeeeee BIG time la siaa! gonna get my hands on it oncce i get my pay next weeeek!!! tak sabar! (: its like been a while since i go GAGA over heeels and shoes. mcmim back to my normal self nak dress up and buy accesories and stuff. work has make me simply plain lil lady i guess? haha. im so loving it you know! (:

and now the family is planning to renovation certain parts of the house and cik wan ask me what i wan in the room and tell me the things he wan me to have in hiss room which are still brand new like the almari and stuff. i like (: so i told him i wanted a pink wall. be suprise. i think pink is nice pulak (: plus i wanna put like the flower2 sticker my room! hehe. so mcm excited gitu la nak ubah elok rumahku! hehe..salah bilikku! hahah. if things go well, thats what gonna happen la. i pray it will. (: idk. like what i say i hope 2010 will be a better one and i think it has a lil bit. i hope 2010 will be better. sparks showing now. hehe. then macam random note tad i overheard nenek and cik wan saying, "anak yatim tau, nak kene ade 20 ribu! " haha. have yet to ask baby about it. nak kocok dier and ask what issit about! hehehe. wondering. hopefully in 1 or two years time, ade ikatan antara kite (:

hmmm..i just cant stop thinking about the shoes la shey! tak dapat mcm mengile la sia! gosh! okayla! enjoy the last day of weekend people and prepare for a monday blues tml! it will hit me cos ill be snooring agaknye in my office tml! shit! tatat! mwah!

2010-01-19T20:49:00.004+08:00

yes! this blog is officially dead! gosh when was the last time i updated it anyway? like finally im updating. okay because my lappy doesnt seem to like me. when i got the time to update comp has been sucky this days. got some problems with it plus when i turn on the comp, it doesnt connect to my WIFI. then when baby use, boley pulak. menyampah. (: im doing well now over at reservation. only that so much paperwork is like killing me like hell. i cnt wait to end attachment and look forward to find my new full time job. already in mind some of it. staying still in the hotel line. i really dont know what else to blog really. ive been enjoying life to the fullest while i canl. trying my best to meet dearest whenever we have different schedule. as you know my schedule will never be the same, always work either 12 hours or more. what more if babylove gonna start his NPC and me my full time job. but at least he doesnt have to report to camp right? will make use of the time. in the mean while, i shall enjoy being a trainee in this hotel for the next 3 month. i wanna go off ASAP and never turn back to that place. (:

alright. i got my 2 days of leave last week, when i actually got 5! great manager did not approve my leave. reason being was im lacking off staff. jadik kirekn salah aku uh nie? it was my last week yet she did not approve my leave. nevertheless i has great time enjoying my every moment of my resting period. 1st day went out with my babylove gfs!! loving them always! i decided to drive. so pick them up at amk as most of them stay in aml. amy in other hand came down here since she was from sch and was lazy to go all the way to amk and meet qin. so yah. i had a great time with them! went over to sempang bedok. everything was not plan. just go wherever the car will go. figuring out the way to this place and that place. and for the ferst time, i drive all the way to jurong. why? cos we're sending amy bakck! i had funn la shey! stresss at the same time! BREAK maha break nye eh girls! hahah! snap snap snap pictures but im lazy to upload the pics so i edditted one of my fav ones. i love them to bits really! and makcik pt sempang bedok tu! irritating pe sia! sampai murr tunjok her gangsterism dier! so fuuny plus membingetkn!

work will be relaxing for the next one month. reason being is that i will get my off either on sat or sun. and i only work 8hrs. if i work more then 8 hrs, sat n sun off. cool or what? one month je. then i think im kinda back to like hell? haha. mampos! well nvm. 2 month je. then im off. heheh! cnt wait! reallly! okay ive alrdy book for chocolate buffett this comming weekend, sat, but i think ill skipped? baby is kinda pissed cos i cnt decide. i told him i wanna go somewhere else. idk. thought of gg fish and co glasshouse, but i just cnt decide. wanna drink, but where is nice to drink? still pending. well, i think i should browse thru and get decide on one place before baby gets upset. idk what else to update, everything seems fine for now. (: alright people! take care and enjoy your happy moments yaw! (:

2009-12-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

Yes. I know I haven been updating. 2010 is nearing but idk if I'll be going out for coutdown. Why? Cos that btch set my roster sucks big time. Thts the reasn to why I have not been updating. Imagine working more then 12 hours per day?? Like 7am to 11pm almost every single day?like what the fuck. Waiting to fall sick and die! I farrking hate it. 3 more weeks 17jan, please be quick.

2009-11-23T07:51:00.002+08:00

23rd Nov means its a love day for us,thanks for being here since 23rd Oct 06 baby.

yes, time checked : 0755 AM. gosh, why am i even awake early in the morning when im working at 3pm later on? oh well, my ans would be, im dam freaking scared to go to work AGAIN, reason being? simply, i'll be over at other department which scares the hell outta me the most. secondly, my nose is being such a bitch cos one side of it blocked. thirdly, i just cant waet to msg baby wishing him the usual thing every 23rd and lastly cos i cnt stop thinking of iPhone and thinking of selling my ipod to idk who!

so many things going thru my mind. idk if certain things are necessary to think of! baby has assured me, he'll always be there whenever he can so that i wont break down for the next two months which for sure i will break down larhs! fuck. oh well, forget it. back to what i was saying, i cnt waet for 17 Jan 10. will elaborate more on that perharps later. but ill keep on thinking bout that date. i will.

stayed at home the whole day yesterdae.actually not, did head over to tamp to sell of things. meet baby also,headed over to my crib and spent the time with him. perharp the last weekend for the next two month. I DONT KNOW! even if can meet you by the singapore river just to spend 2 or 3 hours with you, im willing to do that baby. cos all i need is you. things you said to me yesterdae ill keep it stored in my mind and my heart. thanks for all that.

okay, buying the iPhone yesterdae online wasnt the intention at ferst. we taught we could waet till we actually sell of our Ipod to get the iPhone. i know conplicated much. so now, both baby and me is holding on to two numbers, so who ever that know us, we will inform soon okay about the new number. okay so back to wad i was saying, baby was checking out the singtel shop online and look at the iphone. we got the black one. we were just meddling with the website, looking around here and there. we wanted to know the price we had to pay for the phone if we sigh up for the 56 bucks monthly subscription. was supposed to be 138, but they were having offer that the phone itself will be 88. and who ever have a new line subscription will get 100 dollars off, so we dun need to pay for the phone just the subscription at the end of the month. get it? haha! its okay if you guys dont. so baby aku nie yang pandai, he press confirm, pasal usually they will ask for visa number and stuff, but since it was free, the thing atually was being process! so transaction done! the singtel person wull deliver on 26th Nov itself. i was so dam shocked lorh! pakai my name lag! haha. it was so funny. we were laughing so hard!

then he said, he'll pay la if i didnt want it, but the matter of fact is we alrdy plan for it so just take la kan. since love has found someone to see his ipod too. but no avail for me! sad. yah so, thats the story. then love was suppose to be heading to camp already so i sent him off to the usual spot. went back home and sign up for the singtel shop again to purchase one more phone under baby's name. registered under my address. *i know the next two years, ill still be with you and even after two years, i know we will still be togada cos i cnt see you with other man, and me with other gerl, hell no!* (: you made my day yesterdae and make me sleep with a smile on my face! so sesungguhnyer we still to figure out if the order is already being processed. we feel macam we were just fooling round, so i get cik rose to help me check for me when she go to work todae. she'll inform me asap. (:

i miss my gfs,idk when i can ever meet you all next. hmm.. how bout countdown babies? you guys have any plans yet? hmm.. still pending anywae, idk where to go. idk id we're working or not. sian. if not countdown, perharps just dinner as usual? hmm.. we c about that. 2009 is ending soon, i hope 2010 will be a better one for us. i hated 2009 cos of alot of thing. financial difficulties, going tthru my *sweet* attachment, frnes come and go & many more. 2010 better job, better pay beetter person! (: till then, i really dun know when is the next til ill blog! till then!

2009-11-18T12:30:00.006+08:00

cos when im with you, you make me fly

haven been working for the past two days. tomorrow then ill get back my ass to work. sick yesterday and i had to take MC. thanks love for being so sweet after that fight we had due to some stoopid and kinda lame thing after all was it? so he pick me up after work on monday. all i could remember was we head over to hougang and bought stuff for grandma. headed home afterwhich it was raining cats and dog. freaking heavy. thats all for monday. i guess. kind of?

yesterdae love came as early as 9plus in the morning headed over to CP to take my MC. went back home and had some good talking with love. i just love it that way. since mon all i ever did was to disturb him. see him smile like he always do. okay not really. he alwasys show me his step fierce abg2 kinda face. *menyampah* okay b. haha. so the only wae was to poke his hips (i mean some where near his hips and armpit that area?) whatever la. haha. and see hime smile and still nak step as if its not itchy at all. this few days has been great. seeing him smile. we joke around. been a while since we do that. im so glad we did. then evening headed over to tamp. did some busineess there and i wanted to eat gorreng pisang, so he was being sweet he knows i was god dam broke before my pay finally will come only next friday 27th Nov, he offered to get that for me. he always does. cos we just do la. even bought my all time favourite bubble tea knowing that we'll get thirsty after eating, we stop by the bus stop near the tamp lib and settle down there to eat before boarding the bus. nothing else beats spending time with him.

oh btw, did i mention while otw to tamp yesterday, we meet these few YP's around, okay i ean under my void deck smoking their ass off? like wtf ryte? the thing that made me upset was i du care if they wanna stare or wadever shit, but this particular guy, was staring at baby like he owns the world. while smoking. kirekan he's smoking hot la tu? ahh wadever. baby only said, "budak2, Haisz" so cute la he. he knows he cnt get into a fight, which i told him, not worth fighting with these people, so he was being cool. maklumla, my mr policemen katerkan. (: so pround of you. his patience has always been a plus point.

we had so much laughter looking at the way akak and cik wan act yesterdae. akak wanted to go to the movie with us, cos we initiated to go to watch 2012 or Paronornal Activity but the plan was ditched cos cik wan didnt wante to go, AS USUAL. haha. save money la, dade due anak la. actually kinda true. but its just a ,movie. haha. oh well, so we keep on laughing cum smiling all the way seeing their actions. so cute. khai was smiling and laughing all the way non stop. so cute. just love to see him smile. makes me melt you know. ehk tak ehk? haha. so after a while i told khai i wanted to head over to the playground nearby. it was random la. but idk whats up with me. wanted to tke pictures i did the matter of fact but i dun think ill be uploading cos ive got something else to upload. (: so yeah, afterwhich head over to the shop to buy my all time favourite sandwich choc biscut, jack n jill (; NICE.

just some things that i realise yesterdae make me realise how lucky i am to be living with my fam and khai dispite how tight our financial situation is now. really. like khai is always there for me knowing that im horribly broke same ges to the fam. small little thing to you means the world to me baby. i felt bad at time, you pay all goes to me. the bills, the medical expenses, my transportation fee even my meals you had it all. what more can i ask for. ive help you once, and its my day now, thanks. i dont know what else to say but really thanks. i know youll say, youve said it umpteen times baby, its enough and its nothing. and ill continue to say, its a big thing, not nothing. though financially tight, we as a fam never blame each other bout it, instead we tried ways to find rezeki. work extra, we play and eat whatever we have and we still laugh hard. never stop being with each other at this hard time. thats something i like and i will remember till i grow up. money doesnt solve anything, it wont be able to even buy you the happiness that one needs. and thanks. i must say ive learn alot while growing up as an orphan. i promise ill stand on my own and wunt even bring any difficulties for you people. cos i know mum is looking and shell be proud of me one day. i love you all to bits. really do. (;

before i end my post, i have some pictures i wish to post. i just love looking at it. of course i do. i just realise the things youve done for me, the things youve said to make me a better person, the promises made, and always have the patience i me and asking me to look at the brighter side. (: you make me realise how deep our love is (:

"look on the brighter side, we suffer till january, afther that, ill finish my training and we can be happy for more than that two months." and i think its true. no pain no gain i guess? thanks love. you never fail to keep me smile. (:

so people, enjoy life as it is and i guess dun complain too much bout the things that you dun like, look on the brighter side. sure insyallah in the future, ader hikmah behind all thish (; take care and will be back SOON? haha.

cos i love you with that nerdy yet hot boy-ish look

then you became some hot man to me...

but,cant help it to say you look like matrep at times..

matrep atau bukan, you know ill always...

ill always love you till death do us apart

2009-11-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

haven been updating though i had my PH on monday and off on tuesday. but cnt seem to be enough! wanna start talking about last sunday? it seems so long ago.. kinda lazy wanna update about every single thing. one thing for sure i feel like just closing down my blog. so empty so boring i guess. the same old thing every single thing. still thinking la hor.

everyday is just god dam same old tngwork work and more of work. sick sick n sick for sure. i just freaking hate it you know. totally bored talking about it every single day. though happy one more week to end this misery, ive yet come to the worst department yet. i cnt see how im supposed to work with that department. which equals to lacking of leisure tyme for sure and means i cnt even see babylove as much as i wan too. sesungghunyer aku akan giler cos he's like my air to breathe! he told me it'll be okay but i dont know! 2 freaking months you know. 8 god dam weeks you know! 54 days sia!! OMG! farking shit! now i want time to pass faster. oh well forget bout it larh! buat org binget jek!

wad i did ehk for the pass few days? hahha. i feel so old cnt even remember things! kuang kuang kuang.
from sunday all the way to tuesday, all i ever remembered was i had fun fun fun spending time with babylove. sleepover at my house sun 5pm all the way till tuesday 1130pm. wad more can i ask for. nothing. he was being sweet all the time. i just love you more each day baby. your sacrifices you make for me, loving me with all the flaws i have, no man can ever do that for me. and for sure, not only me, but my fam loves and care for you too sayang. you know that dont you? (: wednesday was as usual work non stop. love fetched me till thurs. friday he had to go over to tanglin for his work. APEC mah.. he had duty at Shangri-La hotel. even now, he's having his duties. 12 hour shift. but i guess he did more though. kecian though he had only 2 hours of sleep yesterdae yet he still fetched me at 4plus just now. told him not too yet he still does. i felt bad but i tried to give in la. kasi dia makan and stuff. but he just din have the mood though. wonder how is he doing now.

love makes me go mad. i go GAGA over him all the time. even though 3 years has passed and we're still in a relationship, dating sessions still one like those couple who just got together. i think some of you will understand. and now, im here stuck blogging. but gonna head to bed soon cos im freaking tired. wont talk about it. even breakdown in front of love the first thing when i get to see him. i guess when im down, tired and just cnt take the presure of the work itself, i just breakdown and definately need love by my side. i told him umpteen times im sorry cos i dun have anyone elese to say too. cos he's my mummy,my daddy,my best fren,my bestest bestes fren,my enemy at times and just everything and for sure my love one. nevertheless, im loving you more each day for sure and nothing else matters. we will pull this thru alright baby. (:

and to cik eein, hope you get well soon. he just has an operation few days ago cos a glass cut thru his eyes. seram ehk. dam freaky dam gross! eww! but glad he's alright. already at home now. considered lucky though. hopefully he'll get well soon! (: yesterdae had hell ouuta fun with the fam. talking here and there. ehk, was it the day before? either one la ehk.haha. cik ani was there, even cousin was there since he's back from Australia. together with eva, we talk and talk and talk. heheh! fun! was shock i got my licience alrdy! ahah. dier plak skrg confident nak ambek 2A licience already. since eva has her's already. hehe. she has KTM 4 if im not wrong. wow! hehe. so cute. but i had to go off since we were fetching cik wan from work. i had some conflict with this god dam freaking driver. pissed! hmmm... as ususal den spend time with love (:

ehk, banyak jugak ehk aku berbual nie! haha. alrite then. till next time people. i dun know when is the next time ill update but, see yah!

PS: Khairul Anwar ku, I MISS YOU LIKE FARK!

2009-10-25T19:57:00.004+08:00

this week was dam freaking happy for me. reason being, baby was out on thurs due his stoopid camp, which makes him dam freaking tired. and sesungguhnyer ive never seen him this tired before. his heavy beg made it worst and i felt guilty cos he fetch me with his heavy beg all the way from changi to clarke quay waiting for me to end work and fetch me home. so yah, he even fall asleep while watching tv in my house. so friday as usual, came to fetch me again, our 3rd year anniversary togada. though we din have a special celebration cos both tgh pokai, my pay will only be in next week, and hubby spend most of his pay on me and save the rest, we went walk2 and headed home as usual. (: like i once told him, nothing even matters as long as he'll always be there with me. and guess wad? we've been fetching and sending cik wan to work. haha. and ive been drving him all the time. so funny you know. we had laughter all the way from thurs to now. just because of driving. cik wan plak have been asking me to send him to work or fetch him to work. his favourite sentence will be "cha, antar cik p work ehk.?" hahah! funny sia. but im happy at least im getting better or at least driving will be better. like seriously, driving with an instructor beside and on your own is definately laen giler babi sia! but im loving it! next wekk though i get ff on thurs, will be driving again, cos i plan t go out an have fun with my dearest!

got craving for satay la shey! so either will be eating at sempang bedok, the esplanade nyer eating place atau bedok corner la..we will see how. and me being cheeky as always will get my hands on something new biler pay day comes, plus the other day when cik leha was here, she offered to bring the clothes that ive never wear before or either wore once, and sell it to her budak2 MALAS. hopefully keching keching will come in soon! at least the things i need i can get! (: lets see, what did i do taday? woke up, baby was alrdy at my house, slacked, i bath, get ready and we send akak and fieqa to her mum's place. grandma tag along since at ferst she wanted to go geylang. but in the end we end up going to giant instead. just like we did yesterdae. haha! ( after send cik wan to work, kiter mlencong to ikea just to have ice cream and brownies! togada with yuyul! haha) walk around, bought groceries and off to compass to do something and home sweet home. since baby brought car as well, we had to leave his car over at my house multi story carpark. tapi takot jugak sak pasal takot kenek saman! hahah! da park krete cik wan, we eat slack again and owent out he drive this time maen pat carpark! hahah. so my day has been great. will be better next week! (: baby took a photo of me drivng and say i look so tense up! hahah! take a look! mcm siiiakkkk! hahahah! okay watever la.

see? yela. the feeling different la. and i freaking hate it when i have to park. cos i still have to learn alot from it. like without the ole cam ner. i totally suck at it for now. not really suck la cumer belum pandai.haha. kasik pole uh conferm lei nye! hahaha! like wth ehk. thats why for now, i need baby to be there with me when i drive cos i need him to help me see stuffs. lau tak mati aku! other then that nothing much la! (: loving my khai more these days, willing to tahan at my bad temper to him, especially when driving. so hard just to get down on one decision.so irritating sia. haish. need to control this temper of mine. oh people! satio and aino is alrdy out in mobile stores! omg omg! lawa giler la shey! but that khaikhai dun wanna use sony ericssion alrdy! benci! mati mati nak try htc and other brand! benci shey b.! gosh. im missing him alrdy. till friday we will meet baby! ill be fetching you love. take care okay. i love you till bits.! and people, take care and enjoy your weekday tml! im goonaa hate it due to work. fucking shit! benci nk p clarke quay. benci nak p tmpt to, but in the end, no choice! arghhh!!!!! bubye! till my next update!!!

2009-10-21T19:25:00.003+08:00

its 21st october already! rusty rusty blog. ala... i bet seldom pon people read my blog. am i right? hahah. oh well, bee busy with work as usual. and as usual ive got tns to complain after few weeks of keeping quite bt the way they are treating us. not sure how my othr fellow mates are doing but for sure im not really gna be happy with my life at work. dats for sure. maybe exception for siska. because ofher im happy in that department now. cos ill always go crazy with her, cry with her and we almost share every single thing togada. one thing for sure yang sesungguhnye membuat aku binget setengah mati is they are fucking fucking fucking god dam mother fucking ikot kulit drg yang pikir banyak peh putih tau bersih tu. puki taik. (what ever. sorie for the vulgarities) i just cnt stand it. being there for 5 mths seems like 5 years. and to that god dam freaking bitch, dun act as if you know every single thing. youre there for like few months also k. just that you thing youre so great! argh! just cnt stand her! irritating such a pain in the ass tau tak! muke taik! harap jek lawa prangai puki tiang! picking on people that is of a lower rank then you. just waet till i officially graduate! itu pon i wun be working there uat mate saket jek! okay enough of all this ehk people. uat org binget jek~

dearest khaikhai is officially my driver since july. and since oct 15, im a driver myself! (:

my close one, lau naak tau you all kol jela ehk. but apparently some da tau la eh (: hehe. syukur alhamdullilah.! so many ting happen all these while. babay's 20th bdae, to the leaves that i have taken cos khaikhai had his leave also (: to the trip to town where fightss here and there happen mcm ribut tauffan, to the suckies day at work, my dearest khaikhai is at ubin now and he's so farking hate it. so manyn things happen which i myself dun get a chance to touch ths lappy and update my rusty blog,padahal im always surfing the net with the Itouch. replying things little by little but just plain lazy to update my blog. just got that sudden urge to use this red lovely lappy of mine. mcm suddenly rindu.

rindu uat project, rushing thru the datelines. haha. conferm lepas nie nak buat report for my final test susah giler! satu tahun otak mati nak uat report lak. and khai khai has been pastering me to start at least a bit pasal nnti susah, and me being plain laZy in the arse, tak nak dgr cakap dier. bluek! hahah. something random. haha. ermm, i just love my fam. i mean my aunt and uncle and grandma that im staying with, including cik leha and cik ani. even though how hard our life is we never mengeluh and always be by each other side. yes, we are having like a lil financial difficulty, sesak sini saner this month. for me, pasal most of my gaji gone towards my Traffic Police test, which i didnt mengeluh, pasal ader hikmah disebalik itu (: akak pulak, due to giving birth, due gone to fina syaista, dats something good also. money gone bukan pasal bende tak senonoh! see? so wad ever we have, makan jelah. theres no use picking on things to eat at these very crucial point of time (: but end of the month is comming and it means money comming.! nak buy wad i wanna buy! (: and to my dearest aunty's that supports me and the fam all the way no matter wad, thank you so much. i leanr alot from all the stories share and the things we've gone thru. (;

and definately not forgetting muhammad khairul anwar, thanks for every single thing youve done for me, and definately my fam. thank you so so much my love. other people can despise you for what ever shit reason that have in mind, but definately not me. okay maybe some times i get frusfrated and just talk things whcich is not supposed to be aniwae, im sorry. youre just the sweet heart and for some reason i think god has sent me and angel after they took one away from me. i hope things will last. thanks for everysingle thing that you gave me and my fam. i realise how much you love not only me butmy fam. its just so difficult to describe, and let it be between you and me including my fam know what i mean. baby, youre the greatest gift i ever had, and just in case i wont be blogging on 23rd oct itself, let me wish you and advance 3rd year anniversary baby. im falling for you every single moment ever single second (:

currently wacthing singapore idol! charles dedicating the song fall for you for his girlfriend! so sweeeet!!!!!! menusuk di kalbu shey all the spore idol singing for their love ones! im missing khai khai! ): till then people! take care!

2009-10-04T19:57:00.005+08:00

sesungguhnye blog nie da berabok setelah sekian lamer tak di update. haha. wadever larh. so mendaks my hair colour da fade cumer pat bwh2 jek got my colour and highlite. sesungguhnye mengamok can. i must tahan..few more months to go till the attachment is done. like 6 more months? freaking shit can. pic above was taken during my birthday. haha. which is happy belated to me,Qin and my only one Khairul Anwar! (: now is alrdy like 3rd oct. kuang kuang kuang. not that ive got no time to blog. i admit im busy with work, but when i go online, all i do is to surf the net. dats all. usual thing is read blog and Mainly, looking at online clothes (: loving it. and addiction i must say and khakhai for sure will laugh his ass off me cos i once told him i wun get addicted for sure. haha. mcm paham la konon kan. (:

rayer is definately not as amazing as usual. many things just got in the wae and sum how or rather i hated this year. futher more, i kinda hate turning 19. cm bad luck g2. haha. sesungguhnye turning into a big fat 20 next year makes me excited. (: birthday celebration was normal. sesungguhnye malas nak cerite. who ever was there my fam especially khaikhai for that bear cum flower cum chocolate delivery from flower hut early in the morning (: malu deeehhh... (: and that for the beautiful top and dress. in return i got him his bdae present clinique happy man perfume togather with the body wash. and he was so loving it till he'll continue using it if finished. (: just love it la. though ntg so special (: being ard with him and the fam. oh yah! almost slipped my mind! 25th september, just before mine,which is on the 26th september, FIENA SYAISTA was born! cutteeee! so da tau la, thoguh i went out on the days i had my off day, i had to be at hospital for 3 consecutive days. cxant stop looking at her (:

cute kan cute kan. hehe. geram sungguh! will be doing rooms till nov. hated it. wont elaborate so much. wad i know is just i wanna get dis freaking ovver and done with! i swear. god help me to pull thru dis obstacle for me. praying hard. dis month is just full of excitment. and idk how to explain this feeling of mine. 15th oct will be d day, if i dun pull thru, it'll be till long long time until i try again. i fucking hate dis feeling. 23rd, my big day. you and me baby. trhe 3rd year anniversary. will update till den i guess? hahah! so many thing going ard that idk wad to say. and before i end dis post, just see a few things i wish to eat! banyak tau! haha! take care people! mwahh! (:

seafood platter over at fish & co

chocolate tart from kak aishs's sis

long john silver's shirmp and cheese salsa

chocolate milk tea from cup walker

nacho with cheese

mac jack's chocolate cake

pasta cabornara with chicken ham

ben and jerry's cookies and cream

famous amous, no nut choc chip and double choc chip and pecan

cheese fries
meringus(sound mcm hingus!) from kak aisha's sis

now tell me how m i supposed to eat sumer niek! hahaha...

enjoy!

ps:baby, im so happy we made it dis far (:

2009-09-15T21:26:00.005+08:00

[blogging while otp with khaikhai! (: ]

today is 15th september. which means we're half way thru september already. so fast. without knowing, hari raya puasa is nearing. and ive got few frens celebrating their birthdays! happy birthday to the following people yaw! be it da lepas ke belum, this people are bborn in the month of september!

NohhRatul,Huda Jamal,Efaah,Iffah,Aikho,Evi,Syqin Mogni,Zurah,ZuraStar,Lynn,Athyra & FezraJambu. Thats all i can ever think for now! (: okay let me start with previous previous days of i dont know what i do. haha. okay merepek.

Thursday,Off day, sesungguhnye menympah. i hate it wen i get weekdays off. ahah. which mean sun & sat working my ass off baby! which means, lesser time for my babylove, equals to menyampah! so i slack from morning till evening! sesungguhnye aku tido mcm badak. haha. dam shagged till im dead slipping like a pig. i actually accompanied akak to Amk as she has he appointment at KK womens clinic. shall not drag bout dat. all i can say, im so scared to get pregnant but i wan children! hehe. (; mcm seram gituk ngok perut yg suddenly become so dam big! the stretch marks! OMG! seriously, dam scary! the kiter kn kaki merayap yg best nyer, nie mak cik, da bawak perut pon still can walk n walk n walk! haha. head to amk hub, did lil mini retail session (: bought foor to buka over at mac, pie kia and mac cafe! weweeet! cabbed to amk earlier on, so cabbed back home! (: initially i wanted to send akak back by cab and i continue the journey to geylang but as usual, delays happen so i head home and break fast kejap while waeting for huda to fetch me by cab (: ferst time go geylang for the month! haha never jejak there already. haha skip skip skip, had fun with her and cabbed back home yet again. $$$ gone wasted! broke gile!

Friday,nothing much. DRAGG myself to work,initial shift was 3-11 til sun,but had to do 8-4pm since siska was on MC,after work, den home sweet home, waet for khaikhai love to reach home (: and of course, noone at home except for grandma,i had to cook for him. cook spag cabonara mushroom with hotdog and parmesan cheese and mushroom soup. (: even grandma loved it! been a while since i last cook for him. biaser la hes in camp and me busy searching for experience in the hotel line. gosh. wadever.

Saturday,mentelism la aku! haha yah, cut my fringe on friday, after that mengamok sendiri cos my inside curls da starting to show. punyer mengamok aku. haha. i cut my fringe on thurs la! haha isit? i think so la. den at 9am on that dae, sanggop bangun pag just to rebond my frindge! haha. giler kn aku. yes, i cnt take it if my hair go haywire, and it doesnt turn out the way i wanted. so baek kn si khai khai bangon pag2 to teman me to go do my hair and so i went earlier he reach half and hour later and accompanied me all the way till 11plus (: den head home and we slack at home for a while before off to work. yes me. off to work till 11pm. while he breakfast over at uncle's place and then head to geylang later at nite with the fam to get his baju rayer(: saaayng sayang kamu. (: as usual, i had the late night tak with him otw back from buangkok to my house (: by the time it was alrdy past mid nite, i went straight to BED!!

Sunday,prac at 9am! haha. padahal kn,ahaha. nvm. onli me, my instructor and khaikhai tau. lau ckp,nnti kenek ssaman plak! after prac saw dearest khaikhai with his car,so gerek la! dpt drive me ard and drive me to work. best best! (: been a while alrdy kn dearest. head to plaza, den home, den sengkang riverside park den clarke quay (: had fun moments with him always(:

Monday, GFS ku tercinta! i knock off work at 5pm. told them to meet between 530 to 545. i din wan to be so early,so i dely delly haha. at locker itself, evi and jas was waeting for me. but den siska had to go ferst so we say goodbye to siska ferst. bf waeting alrdy hor sis! (: so left with evi and jas. waeting for me to get changed, then jas had to go ferst cos SOMEONE waeting for her. left with evi! haha manjer sak org kene tunngu. stop it sha. haha ok wadever. den i followed evi to marina bay station and bounce back. dats y i rch at 6pm amy. maaf yer. yerr kau reach ferst! (: followed by qin. murr reached ard 8 while we break fast pt ayam penyet ria. menyesal tak ambek gambar tau! ): i love my gerls la. nvm stop making me laugh. and we were like bitching non stop!
murr:KU nk belik kn shali yg tali pinggang kelepek!
us;kelepek? kau pikir ape? time tarian nye rambot kelepek per! (:

murr has her own terms of saying things. carek punyer carek den in the end,as usual, nver get anything! hahah! suak! qin plak, ehk, aper nie ? grass ehk. hahaha. qin qin. da penat jalan2 settled at marina stairs. (; so peaceful pasal aper? no YP ard and just us and a few more peole ard, just talking like wad we do. cathcn up stories and stuff. (: me talking about my experiences i had! haha. and ader la ehk gerls. kiter2 jek tau. i swear i had a good laugh with you gerls. you gerls always make my day

yesterdae and today im on 9-5 shift, seriously not enuff sleep since ive been gg home late and waking up early in the morning for work,tml will be on 3-11pm shift. ): but im happy, cos can start to fast already! happy! im missing khai alrdy. so so much. and comming to think about rayer, i just have to go thru so many things. im thikng bout alot alot of things in my mind that i find it dam difficult to express it out. let it be only me keeping all this to myself. nothn to say for now, and if ta sempat nk wish, SELAMAT HARI RAYER AIDILFITRI people. treasure the ones you love. esp your fam. ):

2009-09-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

been a while since i really update this dusty blog of mine. and this will be a short one i hope. cos my head is like giving me a big problem. my head and my neck is aching like mad. i tried to endure since idk when. now i cnt take it and after updating for a while, im gonna tuck in to bed. why? cox im working at 9am tml. and for the rest of the week,im goonna be in the 3-11 shift. dammit! and thurs will be my off day which means sian. cos he already promise me weekend off, but just for this comming week,cnt accomodate to it cos people taking leave and clearing off PH. off day, accompanying akak to check up i guess, cos any moment she can just give birth! scary i tell you ti see her tummy that way. mcm can burst like that.

20th sep, ferst day rayer,initial shift was 3-11 again, but then i manage to change with seng yee and got 8-4pm instead(: yayness. then will be working 3-11 shift mos of the tim. sian. but contented cox why, the 3 F1 days, ill be taking my leave! yayness! (: which means, 26th, my special day, ill be slacking sumone i guess. ehk khai khai. haha. *hint* *HINT* (: but sadly, this year i wont be buying any new rayer clothes. simply cos i aint like any other people who has parents to give them money to buy new clothes. all the years, its been me buying all those, buy since im kinda broke, why? cos my TP is like in oct which means alot and i mean ALOT of money is needed. plus i have some other issues to handle. at the same time, i dun think ill be at home most of the time cos work occupy most of my time. and barely i think i will go out for rayer. so yea. since maseh ader baju rayer yg last yeaar, ill just use that. dun care waad people wanna say, as long i know how to prioritise my money with the things i think is way important than others. cox im the one earning my own money, spending it and no chioce gotta think bout how to spend the money.

only you know why i am in this state. all cos of my own blood. dam it. hate it. but on a brighter side,im happy cox i know that babylove will alwasy be there for me no matter what trouble i am. and since he's working already im happy that he can help me a little and definately he wont be shy to do that. even if we spend little, i know you have savings and i know i have the future with you. masa depan i terjamin. as for me, once a hold that diploma cert,once a have that stable job i need, its my turn to save. and once i reach 21, itll be a bright future. ryte b? i hope so everything will go smoothly. its just between mw and the close ones. shall not disclose it here. been having so much fun with the love ones, meet ups with the shatec clans, having so much fun and definately the family and my dearest khaikhai. (: sahur with you, buka with you, thanks love for that. (: i love you and only you. wont be meeting you for long once you book out ): due to my stoopid 3-11 shift from wed onwards ): we will pull thru ehk baby,willing to meet up early just for you (:

irritated by the fact that i wanna rebond my hair, but i have to bun hair all the time during work. its like ruining my hair kn. like wtf. thish year, really not the year to be glam and stuff. step dwn a little. and definately looking forward for 2010. new begining,new image,new year,no longer a teenager,new job and almost everything new. cnt waet to change new fone asap. soon when i get $$$$ insyallah. 2 months time. (: eh b? ;p alright then, till then! will blog when the time comes! biler da berhabuk den i blog! hahah! in the mean time, miss me! :p

2009-08-26T14:40:00.002+08:00

been weeks since i had weekday off. and weekday off = bored! freak. im just plain boring can. as usual i wont be going out as babykuz is inside camp! so ill be stuck indoors. waiting for akak to come back home and think of what to buka later. haha. ive been wanting to eat the kfc spicy drumlet! hehe. and some epok2. and maybe cheese fries. hehe. its only 2plus now. but im alrdy thinking what to eat or what to cook? stress sia everyday must think. im having headache sia now. dam bad. been having headaches since the starting of ramadhan. and Selamat Berpuasa people. haha. to late to sae. its been like 5 days since we've been fasting. and im gonna be broke like soon, and pay day is like tml! yayness! finally. still have to save up for TP. sian.

haven been updating and theres so many things i wanna update. haha. if i can tahan and type, ill just go along lla if not then i shall skip a few and then bye bye. haha. friday, yes, meet khai later at nite. i went over to meet the AMK-ians over at haji lan, bugis. i swear i had the greatest time ever. as usual la kn mesti kenek kacau2 from the guys. just like duludulu. haha. i swear. and its like everyone grow up so fast that at times i barely could ever recognise them. of course la its been 7 years sia! and eveyone is like not staying at amk after all. only like a few? hehe. so it was, me,qin,aisha,nohratul,qid,qim,syafiq,irshad,haikal,rakesh,akmal and kori (: imagine! kuang kuang kuang! berlambak kn, ferst was dinner over at tong seng. i swear drg ust paishey sekejap. kids,jom duduk. siak ajer. as usual catch ups here and there! (: off to sheesha-ing at haji lane. den berbual2 and wadever la. best larhs. but then i have to go off ferst since i meeting khai khai love. (: and as usual la spend quality time. pictures up on facebook la. i malas nk upload . hehe. saturday & sun was spent with babylove and the rest of the days aku kerjer larhx!

gosh, and did i mention i lost weight. tkperla.only org dekat2 jek tau ehk (: work punyer pasal la. use physical strength + stress = lose weight! hahha. sian. its hardship you know i swear i hate it. i dun like working. i hate it. like i always say, i wan to work already please. sian la. okaylarhs! lazay la! my head is spining can! till the next update people! selamat berbuka! (:

2009-08-18T18:20:00.006+08:00

boy,im missing you

when can this thing call training be over?

i swear im fucking irritated already. 5 months,counting another 8 more freaking months. fuck.

happy that the fasting month is here.

in less then a week we're gonna be fasting alrdy.

means rayer is nearing and sumhow im happy and on the other side im not.

rayer means being happy with the loved ones.

and everytime rayer is here, the same old thing will happen.

sucks to see how happy other families are while me?

ya allah, bless me with a complete family in the future please.

cos i had enough for now. to go thru all thish every year. only you know how it feels.

today was pretty much alright. idk what will the outcome be for tml.

its always a suprise. and i hate it sumhow. what ever la. i totally got no mood and im just waeting for dearest to give me a call. and i have yet eaten and taken a bathe yet. punye malas~! and why the heck itunes is giving me problem uploading songs to my ipod. nabeyyy..! issit just me or im being so freaking moody this days.fuck. ishk. alright people take care!~

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2009-08-17T20:05:00.004+08:00

okay i know the previous post is so merepek. i was busy posting,pikir confiden la tu nk post den sudden cum the laziness plus i was busy talking on the fone with babaylove. haha. then i drop the idea of posting and then talk with babylove till idk when. haha. i guess ill be doing a proper update today.

my weekends was well spent. as usual saturday was with babylove and sun i was busy working and after work babylove fetched me from work and i sent him over to wlds. cos after which ill be heading home and he, back to camp. tengah2 la kirekn. haha. so yeah. saturday went over to town since both of us haven even touch and walked around ION. (: has the greatest time with him. as usual. been so long since we went to town. even to catch a movie. due to the schedule that we have we dun use to hang out as much as we use to anymore. usually lazying down at home sleeping or watching tv. thats what we are gonna do for the weekend i suppposed. (: if not, just a simply movie date will do since its been months since we do so(:

so ferstly,dearest came over at ard 10am. i was still sleeping wen he was otw here so i quickly wake up and go and shower. haha. biaserla pompuan siap lmbt he haad to waet. in the mean time as usual fieqa syanise will manje2 with him. always sia! haha. she will always sit at his lap. play2 with him and stuff. then we ead over to rivervale mall by cab. cos member baru dapat gaji and nk bukak one more bank for his daily expenses and the other one for savings. (: thatss why my saturday was......awesome! all his treat! hha. tk selalu shey g2. but malu la jugak. hehe. he really pamper me alot. ikot karenah aku! haha. after which we head over to town la. walk2 walk, den wanted to settle down at swensens ION but the queu, YA ALLAH mintak ampun! seriously. give it a miss and went over to suntec!

wanted to buy his jeans but give it a miss cos, its UGLY! tk lawa la shey. haha. den head over to marina to have our late lunch at secret recipie. (: and, he bought me a lovely earrings from chomel. im loving it. thanks love! lamer tau dier tk belik kn dier brg. hahah (: den jalan2... banyak la jalan2 but im lazy to explain. then head over to geylang. why?? cos kiter nk fetch nenek. together with cik farah and cik wan. (: we head home by his car. haha. we sempat to see baju rayer and i adore a few and alrdy have it in mind. but have yet to comferm what colour we wearing this year(: best la my saturday! i was shagged! sun work today work and so will be the rest of the days. ):

im having so much difficulty in work. i swear my body are aching. seriously i never felt this way before. the feeling of giving up is there. broke dwn so many times these month. i cnt help it. way too much. but like what i always tell them wad can we do? we're here for experience, we dun have much to say. and as much as i wanna quit, i cnt. i cnt see the money that i spent, just for that piece of cert, go wasted cos of these work experience shit. true? almost 13K for 2 years, and im giving up for these 5 months? no way. ive got 7 more months to go. why cnt i endure? so much sacrifices ive made these time i need that cert to get hold of my cert. my diploma in hotel management. i dun wanna lose it. still thinking of what to do after thish. for sure i wont know if i wanna continue in these line. but i love service. i have the passion. thats for sure. hasih. will think bout that later. not now. i really dun know.

khai,thanks so much for everything. really. i cnt say much, i wun elaborate on how much youve done for me. let it be our secret and our journey of our love life to remember. no matter what happen, no matter how you think other guys are flirting with me, youre still my love. my number one. remember that. i love you khai, i do. thanks! i thank godd for showing me theres someone out there for me(:

gosh tml work. fuck. when i come to work i think of what time im going home. and when i wake up my body is so freaking tired. gosh im gonna endure it for few months. mcm sial! ishk. alrite people, i need to update my ipod and picture, will be blogging soon! and talking about ipod, baby's camp mates da giler ipod! sumer dpt gaji dis month, (mentang2 bomb_) haha, most of them buying ipod, so cute. jiwe. haha alirete! tata! (: take care people!

2009-08-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

here i am blogging while watching ejen cinta and waeting for khaibumbum to give me a call. which he have done so but for only 1min? less then. all i heard was "hello b!" den...when i wanted to say hello he goes"japp...eh chibai la why must do haircut again?" den..."b call you back k sorry2.." ishk. binget shey kejap. haha.

ermmm...dala malas nk blog! haha. bye!

2009-08-04T20:06:00.002+08:00

beeen ages since i last blog. i guess when i just have the mood to blog then ill blog. sumtymes im just too freaking shag to even blog. current department makes me dam retarded! dam tiring! and soon, ill be doing whatever the full timers are doing which sucks big time, i din wish for this to happen. idk whats up next. and i pretty much think that trainee are the worst thing on earth.! i just cant wait to get a proper job after thish comming april..i just cant wait idk why. gosh. i neeed more pay more free time for me myself and definately for my loved ones.

dearest have been sick for the pass few days. he got 5 day MC and was out on thurs. of course i took the chance to meet him as and when i can. though when he's still sick im willing to go bedok and meet him. friday went over to his house. talk with his muummy while waeting for cik wan and cik farah to fetch me. and did i mention cik wan already got himself a job? syukur alhamdulliah. (: bck to what i was saying,saturday,sun and mon was spent with the fam and khai of course. and i was so happy cos sun khai drove me ard (: thanks dear bought food for grandma cos it was her birthday. (: then we jalan2. (: spending time with him is just awesome (: im loving it. now have to adapt back cos he masok camp liao ): but nvm. ader hikmah (: dis week got sat off.! (: rare! once in a blue moon! so can spend the whole day with him! (:

last week has been great i hope this week will be the same(: b, drive me ard again cannn? *winks* im craing for so much things you know. and i told khai to bring me out wen he got his pay. i have tons of things in mind. eat satay,drink sugar cane juice with a lil of lemon squeeze,fish and chip with tartar sauce, the jb jueh tart!, & lots more! fuh! haha. lazy to upload pictures. so wont be having any for now. DND will be on 6th of aug. and be prepared to be back at sch! hahaha. *winks* will upload pictures once its done. haha. alrite lazy la to update. till den people! live life to the fullest,

2009-07-27T19:19:00.004+08:00

proper updates now. haha. im back at home. rotting and waiting for my dearest khai khai to call me. (; i swear today the rain uh ssuper powerful nk mampos can? i was using the umbrella otw back home from buangkok and i was still wet! front and back and the sides. the only thing that is not wet was my top head! seriously. i was like wth. so wet. then fetch azmi cos his transport was there already so i waited for a while. random la nie. hmm...

i seriously am not happy with the way my workplace handle things. why some staff gets better treatment than others? and that should not be the way can. one side can be the victim and it hurts big time. not that im against the other people but oh well. i dun know how it will last but if this continues i will burst any moment from now. but what to do? something make me calm today. when i entered the room of one guest, facing the singapore river, it was raining out of a sudden. so i stop doing my work and look over to the beautiful surrounding that singapore has. i fell so calm. better. not thinking of the problems that i have at work. and just continued enjoying the beautifuul scenery. one thing was missing. my dearest khai khai. if only he was there. to hold my hand tight or just simply a hug while enjoying the scenery. i would feel complete.

i guess thats life. when your beloved is right beside you we take things for grandted. when the person is not there you'll miss every single thing that person use to do with you. anyone agree with me on thatt? (: yes! thats what im feeling now. missing the dearest khai khai while he's away. and kakak being so kuku always love to disturb me. she'll go" tu la time khai ader krg due mcm anjing ngn kucing , now dier pt dlm krg da berjauhan rindu mcm nk rak kn kn kn ??" haha. true. true. haha. i love you la khai. too much. and no words can ever describe that can. even if i type thousand and thosand of words it wont ever shows how much i love you. (:

im looking at phones now. i know what phone i want. hoping to get it by the end of the year or early next year. thats what dearest khai khai plan. my top three phone. and his top three phone to get. (: hehe. wanna what? okay lets see okay. here we go, ferst up, my top three phone!

and this is my dearest khai khai's favourite phone la shey. gerammm jek kiter duek!

for sure getting la but we still have plans ahead. bnyk tau bende nk kenek save. im like saving up for licience. the phone and dearest birthday gift. (: what more rayer is comming. which means more money! dearest khai khai and me still haven decide on what colour to wear. haven even buy baju! so have to buy siap nye je la. (: you treat ehk b? *ehem2* hahaha. puaser is like comming reeaalllll sooon! hehe. HUDA HUDA HUDA! tml amacm? jadik tk jadik tak? excited nie! nk mkn nasik ayam penyet! hahah(: beep beeep me okay! mwahs! okay peeps! till then yaw! (: khai, i love you! see you on friday!

2009-07-26T21:28:00.002+08:00

Alright. My blog has been rotting!!! Only thing that is rolling is just the tagboard!! Haha. And miza sayang, knp tak tegur eh. Sombong larryh... Read titi's and fyda's blog. Apparently they went for ndp also! :) hehe. And I think that this year ndp is really way better then the rest of the year. Not boring. They lightings and the sounds were awesome! I was so proud of our national security. As in the police force and army and civil defence! Cool. Like I always say I love the vehicle that they have. Vehicle eh? Haha. I like I like. And I'm pround cos my lovely boyfriend is in police force. :) for the next 5 years for sure. At least for now I'm happy with that. For now okay darla. But I'll be here for you anytime you need me. I had a wonderful saturday. Today was okay also. Sent babylove to cck. And head hm. As usual la. After work went to suntec with siska and babylove as well. Bought our favourite egg tart! Double choc egg tart and the melting choc egg tart! Woooow! Yumm yumm! Hehe. And for the past few weeks it's been the same routine. Some of babylove mates are dam funny. Last week my stomach was so painful cos I was laughing out loud with their funny actions. Haha. Did I mention that I've been with huda jamal during my off days. Haha. Fun fun fun. One thing n fun. Work. I hate it. Dun wanna brag bout it. I'm living my live now happily. :) with all the belovedZ. No matter how far they are they will always be closE. And for fcuk sake, I'm confuse between two phone. Gosh b, I nakk cannn?! *winks* flips hair mentel mode. Haha! Okay la!! Tata! Will do a proper update on wed maybe. Ader plan! Hahaha. Tata.! Have a good week people!

2009-07-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

i wanna upload pictures but i cnt seemed to find a way to do that. why? because i have wok at 8am tomorrow. and i freaking shag. i mean it shag. tried physically,mentally and emotionally can? why? because work has been such a tiring job this days. i swear its freaking tired in this department. my back is aching and my legs are hurting. even my hands are turning weird. like wtf. i hate it. yes my one and only sweetheart khai khai khai is already back in camp which means im back to being the only gerl. i hate it. i cnt get use to it. the timing that i have sucks big time. he seems to be okay but i cnt? u understand. i wanna spend time after a while not meeting. your my one and only soulmate that i have, i dun wan other people. and im so freaking stress about that. now,few months from now. you know what i mean khai. you know. you know how much i am so stress about all this. i dun blame you. i hate my work. plus i dun like it that much either now. this department. i can only think i have my dream job when i ferst start this work. yes that particular department that i like. not all this. but i cnt do anything. to get that dam cert, i have to go thru thish shit. yes shit. so hard to even communicate with them. and im pretty much have particularly no life. and im pretty much sure the rest of my mates are feeling that wae too. i realise that this is not realli what i wan. should have taken the othe diploma. yes, i regretted. but i didnt regretting meanting my mates that i have found. they are indeed great. i miss sch. just study. not now. hasih. im sorry khai i cnt stop tearing when youre going in. i know ever since 7th july ive been making you worried. but sumhow i didnt want to but im still adapting to these major change. i hate changes. and you know that. only you make me a stronger person nowades. i have no one to depend on. i have no one to talk to from monday to friday before you book out. i have no one to go out with and make me happy like i use to. i m practically shit. alone. and i dunno whats gonna happen to me. i just hate to be alone i guess.. i cnt...i hate this feeling. only god knows how much i wish i could be with you but i cnt. and yes im officially shag. totally. like ive mention physically,mentally and emotionally. what cn i do to stop tearing everyday thinking so hard boutt this and that. im thinking all the time. can i even be the old me. not the dun care attitude type of nisha. the emo one. the one whos so weak right now...fcuk...i dun know what to say.

love,im so sorie cos i cried during the days i meet you. over at henderson wave and cck just now. you know what i felt. told you the other day at henderson wave. and thanks b. yesterdae was indeed a day so special where i get to talk the matter of heart. to just cry out so badly in front of you. hug and make me feel kinda better. haish. ya allah, gif me the strength i need to go thru this. please. fcuk. no mood people. just letting out my feeling. take care.

2009-07-07T17:26:00.003+08:00

illusions of him. cnt stop thinking bout the dearest since just now he went in. did secretly call him just now. due to some issues i felt horrible. i hope i can call him again tonite. and from now, ill definately look forward to evry nite. every phonecall ill be having, i hope it'll be from him. and no one else. can call me nuts or wadever but i guess gthe rest of the gerls will know how it feels when your bf is in camp. sucks BIG time. as much as i will complain bout not liking it i cnt do much cos its just wad a man has to do. but ill be waeting for him patiently. like what qin said, "khai will come back". been looking at pictures,upload pictures of us and you into my phone and lappy.

my wallpaper has your face. and everywhere. though now your dearest rambot da tadik, i still dun mind cos nothing change from me. maybe cox today is my off day and i pretty much got ntg to do, all i can do is to waet, waet till you call me like few hours from now. and tml i hope it will be a better day. finished work, rest, and patiently waet for your call. the normal routine everyday. may sound boring but i dun gif a dam. why? cos im so into you and willing to sacrifice anything for you. you know that. oh god.. 2009 is really a challenging year for us. and definately for my fam as well. the recession and stuff. more and more problems and challenging situations we have to face. maybe not for others but it is for me. i cnt say much and im pretty much dam shagg cos my min is just preoccupied with khai khai khai and khai. kanasai! (: ishk. kla! bye!

2009-07-05T20:11:00.004+08:00

off day is today baby! (: like finally im like lazing off at home. with the fam and the one and only beloved (: 2 days time he'll be heading off to his camp. while me, having my driving test. stress gue. haish. oh well, ku rela menanti mu di sini sayang (: well, today early in the morning khai came over to my blk as we were waiting for him. grandma and cik wan send me to the cemetry as i badly wanted to visit my parents grave. so when khai arrived the four of us head dwn to the cemetry. it was freaking hot and we were sweating like mad. bla bla bla. den head to cp to have brunch. my treat (; head home. then as usual la me and khai would fall asleep after a while. dengan nenek skali tdo! haha. the weather was too good la. it would be such a waste not to sleep. then when i woke up we head over to buangkok to buy desserts (; and buy durian for grandma. but before that grandma cook some bubur chacha for us. i din eat you see so we send over some for nenek over at the second floor.

i thought after sending the food we would proceed to buangkok but i was wrong. she ask me and khai to come in and have a drink. alahai! tk baek you see so me and khai had no choice but to stay for a while. yang dasyatnye, bile nk kua tu hujan la pulak! siak kn. we wanted to take cab but it was no where to be found sia. kanasai! bile nk cab tkde! bile tknk cab peh berlambak! haha. den kiter maen la ujan. haha. dam funny ehk b. you know i know. (: he's beeing such a sweetheart, covered my head with his hands. (: dats what he alwasy does. but its been quite since it rained. (: i love you till bits la khai! (; and here i am trying my best to order food from mac,kfc,arnolds & the rest of the delivery outlets fast food, sumer tknk ambek order! kanasai tol! lapar nie! ); in the end dapat canadian! jadik la. (:

&&&& i just finish Banquet! next stop tml will be housekeeping. it may be a tough job but i will go thru this i will! (: dear good luck kay when youre in camp and i will stay right here and wait for you (: anywae, gilfrens aku busy sgt ke tk reply! ): ishk! alright till den people~ enjoy your week ahead! take care.

khai, nothing else matters except for you. and you should know how serious i am being with you. and so do you! (: remember this song while youre in.

Termenung bila sendirian

mengunung seribu harapan

tak mampu ku melupakan

walau kian kehilangan

kerna ku terlalu ingin kan

untukmu riang berkekalan

rela ku berlalu

walau mungkin tak termampu

Selagi daya hatiku ini

akan tetap ku menyayangi

duka tiada ku peduli

bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhentiku

buktikan cinta sejati

tak mungkin akan ku kesali

kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti

tak ingin saling di lukai

kedaifan ini

menjadi penghalang sanubari

Selagi daya hatiku ini

akan tetap ku menyayangi

duka tiada ku peduli

bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhentiku

buktikan cinta sejati

tak mungkin daku kesali

kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Rela ku terus setia

menyayangi mumenyintai mu

walau berjauhan

teguh kalimah kasih ku..

2009-07-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

Girlfriends!!!! Syqin,Raimi,Murni & Suzzanna! Listen up. While I was working just now I felt pretty much bored. So I was singing and singing and suddenly remember you girls. And I have this crazy idea of us going back to syqin's house like what we use to do years ago. How does that sound? :) you girls agree or not with me? But this can be only done if owner of the house if ok with it and to busy with Syaf! :) aku excited tauuuu! We can cook! Or issit just me? I thought if Qin dun mind we can try baking cupcakes as we'll! :) Qin! Da reAd my blog and if you're ok we plan when okay? :)

Ps: baby I'm sorie too. Just think bout what I said just now. Ok? Bout me. I love you. Nothing else matter. Except for you. I love you. I do.

2009-06-30T19:13:00.006+08:00

should be dam lucky today that i actually go back home exactly at 3pm. so excited. but sumhow i was pissed due to some matters i shall not disclose it here. sumhw i got freaking irritated. payday gonna cum like in few days time. cnt spend, sumhow gotta save that money for the pracs and my tp next week. gotta a feeling i wont go thru this ferst time round. just freaking worried and frusfrated. im not even sure if i got my off day or unpaid leave on that day. and speaking of which, love has already gotten his licience. yes he made it thru this time round. and for sure rayer gue dapat naek kerete liao. excited gilerrr youuuu (: i swear i cant focus much on work. one thing in mind is about my licience. i really really scared i wont go thru. as much as i wan to i dun think i would. freak. die la.

this is my very last week over at banquet. and after this no more banquet. for the ferst time in the whole duration i was there today was the ferst time i actually broke a plate. i swear i dun know how it broke in the ferst place. like seriously i dun know can. maybe cos today was super busy and everyone is running like a chicken without a head. i still remember mr loh's word. haha. like seriously, after the AYG has come over to singapore we're running high. baru pt merchant court, can you even imagine stamford? wow. so dam busy confirm. with all the rooms they have, and outlets that is always running high occc? banquet as well. wooo.. haha... confirm busy giiler. i guesss when all this big event take place in your place, you'll be dam busy and time really pass dam fast. the next ting you know youre gonna knock out of work. especially when they are extra staff to help you. i feel so bless for a while. kejap jek. and its good when youre busy youre communicating well with the other departments as well. just that sumtimes wen too busy you need to get things fast, and when the thing are not there you get fuck for no reason. thats what happen at times. i swear i fucking hate it. nevertheless, i shall not complain much.

okay for those yang gonna get the gst money, the money is in already! haha. dam funny sia my grandma just now. he actually ask my uncle to check for her how much balance she has ovver at our bank acc. OUR bank acc mind you. of course la the pin all is with me. she gave our acc book and as my uncle to check over at the internet. dam funny sia. pikir lei scann per. kuang3. (:

idk why im freaking furious att you. so much for wanting to wannt to spend time with you. i dont wanna do that to you. if only you know that. it hurts big time because i wanna just spend time with you before you go. you should know what i feel since yestaaerdae. how much i am happy for you. wanting to be with you. and i just wan the ferst person hat you actually drive around with. i dun care about the danger. i am willing to get hurt with you. i dun mind. so long as i know youre with me and always there for me. remember the letter i gave you to read yesterdae,i willing to got thru anything with you and you should jolly well know that. you know how much i can do anything for you.you know what i meant. evrything. financial,fam and others you should know. nothing else matters more then you. and when im angry you know i can freaking do anything. maki you get farking pissed and others. explains why i do all those things tadik. i dun wan ok. i dont. but i cnt help it and i am trying to understand you. maybe im just mad at you and at myself.i vent it out that way. i know i shouldnt but i cnt control. im sorry. youre my baby and will always be in my heart, my mind and my soul. when i sleep i think of you,when i wake up i think of you, when i work i think of you and practically everywhere i go everyplace i go i think of you. your name is already engraved in my heart. NOTHING else, nothing means more then you.

2009-06-27T21:53:00.002+08:00

finally after 12 days of working straight i have my rest day. like seriously FINALLY. ater this 3 months. and really 3 months, im kinda sick of gg to the same place doing the same thing. or issit just me who barely can adapt to the situation. and i sumhow manage to read stance blog and i totally agree with her sumtymes i really as in now, salute hoteliers as they manage to do those job whom you people thing is just as simply as 1,2&3. which i must admt is definately not. trying to please the guest,ensuring that they will be happy with the service given to them by us,not making them wait as guest dontlike to wait and etc. can you even imagine that. tryin being in the front line without knowing anything at the tip of your hand i must say youre gonna die. ive been pretty much complaining abt how dismake me feel so wear and infact i shud be losing weight alrdy. excpt for that boncetness over at the tummy which is like so fugly.! im still thinking about the careers availble except for being in the hotel. but sumthing that i really wanted to do more was just the fav department that i really enjoy cos i think the people there we just fun fun fun and fun and make me laugh all the time(: i till have 9 more months to think about what to d after my course. thought about one more service line that i preety much like the working hours but akak doesnt seem to agree thought. hmm.. suck man. pikir2. oh well c how it goes.

i think im really too shag that i manage to close and rest my eyes while blogging here. i just wanted to blog as i felt that my blog is preety much dead and boring~ kuang3. sucks la. im like hayal2 sia. idk wad to type when apparently i have so much to talk about in my mind tadik. i pretty much thinking about what to do tml. stil cant decide the place. the time. and so on so forth. still got the prac lesson tml. and to babylove, gd luck. can i just ke blog agaun later or tml. my eyes dam freaking sleepy! arghhhh!

and like finally 6 days to go. supeeeeer dupeerrr happy. for sure they gonna treat me like shit since its the last week for me. mcm sial.! fcuk. till then.

2009-06-26T19:58:00.003+08:00

hey. back into business. haha. kind of ready to blog i guess? but not realli larh kn. just been busy with work work and work. babylove will be in camp 2 weeks from now. and ive been trying to spend time with him as i really want to before he go in camp. the day he go in will be the day ill have my TP. sucks big time. if i sad hw? who to talk to? dam siann lorh. fcuk. haish. oh well pic beside was taken during the time we went to orchard but i cnt remember when. haha. crazy isnt it? i cnt really remember the day as well, i just want tml and next week to past fast please. oh god please help me and gif me strength to continue. only fam and baby know why. im kinda of lazy actually. will be back on sun cos its my off day! mabe will update a lil more. still thinking of where to go larh shey! (: perharps. celebrating the belated 32th month with baby. (: 4 more month we're officially 36th=3years. (: till then. bye bye! have a great weekend!

2009-06-25T21:55:00.001+08:00

will be back. Not for now.
take care and have fun.

2009-06-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

Khairul Anwar,

I'm lost for words. I don't know what else to say to you after all this shits that has happen to me. Maybe not shits just something I cnt take it and have to go thru it for the next month or so. Only you know how much I am suffering here and you never fail to be der for me looking at me, getting worried cos this little gerl of his. for many days I felt so stressed out you are the one patiently waiting for me, ensuring I'm ok before you head home, let me cry out loud and hug me as me to be patient and just think it'll be over soon. How I wish I've got your patience and strength to carry on. Even when I told not to come you just want to, why? Cos you somehow know I'm not okay and needed you there cos you're my listening ear. Despite getting scolded you just don't mind being out every night just to fetch me home ensuring I'm safe at home. You cnt bear to see me in that state. What more could I ask from you?nothing. Cos why? Cos I know no one else can ever do that for me. Even if that sumone like you, nothing can change cos I love you not other. It's you that I want. And thanks again for all your hardship that you have done for me. You're someone special. Someone I truely adore. Someone I know who loves me for real and someone I just wanna spend time with when I grow old. Sounds familiar b? You know what I meant. Thanks again for everythng. My words are just to show how much I approciate you and love you. I'm just speechless. I love you.

Post meant for my most loving boyfriend, Muhammad Khairul Anwar bin Kamaruddin.

Don't need to ask why I'm stressed our. Won't disclose it here. I just fell fucked up. I want July to pass faster. Please. Thank you.

2009-06-08T17:56:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i last blog like what have been mentioned by Atika, excited sanggat meet thr gfs sampai luper nk blog. haha. just that as usual too busy with life as it is supposed to be. enjoying with the love ones. Futhermore work has occupied more of my time actually. gonna miss the frontline people. thanks for all the knowledge that has been given to me. definately i will remember and treasure the friendship that has been built. Miah made my day superb fantastic my last day at work! I laugh out loud pretty much umpteen times you know. (: Thanks Miah! (: Takmu notty okay! (:

Will be starting Banquet tml. Will be working my ass of till sun and perharps next week with idk wen is my off day. hmm.. oh well we see how it goes. i just got back from taking my transcript for the past two years of mky course, it paid off! i pass! contented already that i passed. just have to go thru my attachment and write my report and ill earn myself with one piece of paper that's worth 12K plus. imagine dat. poly students must be lucky alrite! (: so happy.

TODAY, realli went the whole singapore. meet hubby over at cdc as he has his prac. TP 29th June, like always ill pray for your safety and hoping youll pass. As for me still struggling for some stations and TP is like nearing, must buck up man. more lessons means more money! nevermind, nk pass nye pasal. alrite, den went over to BB to take my results. den went over to vivo city to look out for shoes and buy groceries to buy back and cook at home as usual.(: i love some shoes i saw. told him as usual i wanted to buy but tak kasi and not now. oh well, shall waet then. As you all know GSS is driving poeple nuts kan kan kan??! saper agree angkat tangan! (:

Then headed home to cook. i really had fun everytime i go to the supermarket with him and buy the groceries we always end up havingg fun with watever we see! (: maen2 la. i akcau him he kacau me. dam kuku! haha. overall i had fun. eearlier on before we went for roundings at vivo ct we had one starbucks drink we wanted to get wad Qin&Shaf had the other day wen we went out but we bought the wrong one but the sound of ManggoPasionFruitIceBlended sounds pretty much amazing and delicious! So we grabbed that! indeed I din picked the wrong one! superb! and im staring to love love anything to do with PAssionFruit. i love love the PassionFruitRedTea. i love love PassionFruitSoda! the drinks that had PassionFruit is just Superb besides Chocolate(:

Yesterdaee,7th June, had my prac(my turn),den khai pick me up went over to town. intital plan was to eat SakuraInternational, but sumhow it was closed, so dam pisss aku! then went over to RiaNasiAyaamPenyet! as usual had out nasi ayam penyet togada with the prawn crackers yum yum! (: head over to paragon and walked around to look for one bitch atually ahah but couldnt find but its alright. bought biscuts for cik wan and hubby since they both like the same biscuts! and so do i! i was the one introduce it to them(: then buy this lil tiny dress for FieqaSyanise! (: head over to CB to see if murr is working, andddd i SAW her! hug her like mad! hahah. and then i bought drinks wanted to pay for it but the Manager was being nice to not let us pay! hug her and went off! (: told her to mit me soon! den we head over to heren, mcm org giler! haha den went over to some shops where i got some t-shirts for us. hehe(: i like i like,ehk khai eh (: then we went off to wisma,(i swear i was alrdy worn out! ), look for shoes but couldnt findd the one i wanted then off to cotton on body to get my shorts(: hehe. then HomeSweetHome. (:

After thaat as usual we slacked at home, dam funny la. i cooked for the 4 people Maggie curry and tom yam! which suddenly reminded me of the days me and the Gfs were over at qins house during sec sch days wen we actually got free time to go over,i would then cook for them Maggie Curry with Eggs! (: and they would tell me they love it(: and we would share the maggie togada! so dam fuun you know kn gerls? we were just talking about it the other day i meet qin and amy, (which i will elaborate lateer). I reminisce about the memories in sec sch can maek my day. (: thanks gerls for being apart of my life.

Friday,5th June 09, had fun fun fun with the gerls, Amy,Nic,Qin,Shaf & my Khai. over lau pa sat to have our dinner, wont elaborate much as i just have one word to say FUN. (: wanted to slacked at Starbucks And CoffeeBean bt the plan was ditched, head to Fullerton side there and have CB and Starbucks. But did not Sit there we Sat over at the other side of the place. and the times wen we stopped to take pics or just buying drink or gg to the toilet we never fail to have fun and laugh my ass out! Especiallly wen the gilerQin is around! (: i love you all! to bits! definately wun forget and to Qin's BF, nice knowing yah hor. haha. all he did was laugh. Dam funny! and did i mention we saw Syariffudin over at his workplace and we all started talking (: overall i had a great week i hope my dear frens had fun too! and i hope you all had funn too alrite! (:

TakeCare, and to Khai, rest well and i love you,youre just beside me and i wish i could have you forever.

2009-06-01T21:52:00.003+08:00

yes yes! like wad have been mention over at the litle gf of mine nye blog we're meeting up dis comming week. friday night dinner yaw! from nothing to do i had the most hilarious chat ever with dem yesterdae night. tell me hw cn i not love them! just like wad ive told dem, org laen nk ckp gf aku giler ker sial ker aper ke, aku tetap syg krg ehk! (:

pls la conferm cpt2 okay pls boley la make it dis fri! (:

ehk awak, jangan jatuh kerusi okay! (: nnti bf awak ketawe dgn kiter2 skali! (:

ehk kamu, carek la seseorg! lau tak nnti jadik tiang lamp post! haha. JOKING ajerrr..

promise to meet us next time okay? ASAP lau tk kiter sumer rogol kamu! hahah(:

excited la sgt nk jumper drg.. and in the mean time excited nk jumpe mamat nie! (:
good nyte people!

cinta
5 years from now,the day will arrive

2009-05-31T22:30:00.002+08:00

jeng jeng jeng.. off dae today.. finally yaw...currently chatting with my two lovelies gfs and the man.. chtting with the gf to catch up on latest stories about them and planning to have dinner one dae perharps in two weeks time. been a while since i last saw them and for sure i do miss them loads!

as usual its sun todae and its my off dae so time was spent with the fam and of course the man la kn. he came over at 12 plus. had our brunch and slacked till 4 plus wen we actually went out and yah the period of time wen we were slacking at home we watched jgn tegur, ermmm no comments. haha. so went out to return my internet cable, proceed to tamp to get our dinner. yum yum. brought it back homw cos we didnt wan to leave grandma alone. (: thats the nor routine if i happen to have my off dae on sun.(: but next week perharps will be diff la i need to kire financial la ehk b... (:

transcript is out like finally. but we still have to collect it ourself. that one major problem la. haha. russ message to meet uo and take our transcript since we have not meet for quite sme time and everyone's schedule is so freaking diff la! hoteliers are like dat. oh well we see how it goes. and im worried la sum how. so far for the whole 2 years ive never gotten gpa below 2. the last sem b4 gg out for attachment is rather diff but i hope ill pass. i dun wanna waste money on refferal papers plus must study summore! shitty shitty bang bang!

gosh tml is june alry. so fast. 9 more daes. i know ill pull thru i know i will. they love you as much as i do. and i will make them love me too once the time is here. (: marrying in 5 years time ehk. (: you know i know haha!
alrite den i freaking lazy to update lioa. just enjoying life. take care people!

2009-05-28T18:49:00.004+08:00

finally! haks. finally im using the lappy to blog. been using the ipod to update w/o any pictures as im too lazy to use the lappy cos im afraid that the lappy will be dam fucked up. dam slow. so haven been touching the lappy for quite a while and suprisingly today the lappy has been such a good lil one as it auto connects to the internet while usually have to use my own lappy modem to connect to the internet. cos i was planning to return the internet modem for the lappy since ive been working most of the time and dun have any time to spare. boley jugak save up duet tau! every 30 bucks a month can really make a diff!

life has been the usual lately gg to work early in the morning, go back home, spending time with the loved ones especially with the man of my life and for now we have a new hobby, looking for applications for our ipod. dam funny. haha. tml will be another day for me. work as usual. afternoon shift tomolo. before that will head over to cdc to have my prac. june is nearing which means a month more to TP. sucks. freaking nervous. oh well, releks for now.

as for work, been alright. for now. just finished concierge. had my evaluation done by dayan and apparently ive got godd remarks from him. my ferst evaluationn from FO was alright looking forward for good grades but i doubt will get good grades from certain departments. now im over at telephone department. dam fun! hilarious people. that will always make me laugh. miah,tina,santiago & kak linda. so far worked with these people is okay. will be working with abg ael tml. hope he's okay la. from wad i see, i think he's nice? i supposed. next will be my last week over at the department and i will be in a total new environment. Banquet. oh well, we see how it goes. like i say i hope it will be fine tough its tough.

i have tons of photoes to upload but im kinda lazy so in the next post then i will slowly put one pic by one pic in my post if im not lazy.HAksx. i love spending time with the man i have too actually before he goes in n left me for quite some time. i need to spend time cos i know its gonna be diff for us to meet. and for sure i love him alot. he's been quite funny lately as he ahs plan about his future in 5 years time. at least he know wad he wanna do. and even the pay money he has some plans for that. and dun worry hunn i will save up just like you. ill waet for you and we will proceed with the plans we have. (; kiter yg merancang tuhan yg akan menentukn b. i hope he will bless what we have planned. insyallah. you know i know. (:

haven been spending too much lately as i need to save up for my car. just realise that planning is definately the key word for your financial. cos i got the habit of spending all my money when pay day comes. which sucks big time. now the time to save up for emergency needs cos u wun know when you really need the money. as usual la the man have to help me for that cos i suck big time in that area! (; ahah. save up for car,pay the bills,give grandma money and ezlink card money. and the amount we get by the end of the month is definately not enough. have to tahan lorh no choice. wow, banyak nye aku berbual. haha. oaky la! nk surf net and talk to the beloved! tata! (: have a great weekend!

****something happen in the fam. dun let me catch you red handed for sure you'll pay the price for the actions you do if you happen to really nekad to do wad u wanna do. cos i hate people messing up with my fam. i hate it. cos apparently i care alot about my fam cos their the only ones i have.think about the child youve got. think. dun be a freaking asshole and make me lose respect to you though youre older den me. thanks uh!. motherfucker hypocrite.

**i love you khai.
***i miss my gfs.
****i miss my shatec mates.

just like the ferst time we met,i love you with specs.

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2009-05-25T22:44:00.004+08:00

I miss the moments in sec school.
I miss eating in school canteen with Gfs.
I miss the gfs talking and laughing out loud.
I miss those dance lessons.
I miss each n every1's laughter.
I miss the bus stop we usually take the bus to central.
I miss those stupid yet embarrasing moments we had, though was a lil dumb sumtimes we always had fun.

I miss the mates I have at bukit batok.
I miss the bloody factory cheap yet "good" food.
I miss those sleeping in class moments.
I even miss the twins that always make me laugh .
I miss eating in class n tapao-ing food cos we dun have time.
I miss the playing arcade moments.
I miss the long hours break.
I miss us disturbing ron and just having fun.

I'm gonna miss you the most and I wish to spend more time with u these last few weeks b4 leave me for few weeks.
Those hugs and kisses.
Those moments that makes me happy n sad till tears falls.
Those crazy moments only we know what we're talking about.
The times spent with the fam.
The times where by u apologize even though it's definately not your fault.
The bus or mrt rides where by you'll let me sleep in your arms.
But I know we somehow can pull this thru cox we've been in situation far much more worst then this.
And those promises made just for me and you.
Including the plans we have for the future.

The people I have mentioned about all Above know who they are.
The last para is just for my special someone. He knows it's him I'm talking about.
I swear I miss these people alot.
When my lappy us working I'll show the pictures of the one I treasure.

2009-05-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

Well I'm back with uupdates. Haha. I finnally figure out how to blog using my iPod touch. Yes me and my dearest babylove has got ourselves our iPod touch. Rest of the details win elaborate much yaws.haha . I just got bck from tamp with the family and love. Before meeting the fam me And babylove went to spend our own quality time cox less den three weeks time baby gonna book in. But just like was baby say we will go thru this togada and we know that we will have a bright future ahead. You know what you tell me and the plan we have made right. Only god know what we've went thru.wad ever it is I'll never stop loving you. I'm loving this new gaget ive got man. Apple indeed has it's speciality products . Realli good. Alrite gonna sleep soon! Working at 8 am tml. Have a great week ahead people!! :) y

2009-05-14T22:12:00.002+08:00

promise to post dis picture. dun ask me why but i love this picture. i adore him till bits. (: my man here will be having his medical check up again over at sumwhere near raffles, dis time round like i said, for the SPF. since he got his letter, been spending time much often. fetching me from work and stuff. cos i know he'll be der wen he can for me. and wen he'll be away i gotta be strong and got thru dis togada with him. and like wad atika say, SPF better hor.(: and i shouldnt be sad cos der's technology for me to use and call him wen ever time permits(: mira. hehe. oh well, after work just now we rushed over to the cathay to watch the uninvited. wanted to watch jgn tegur but the timing wae to long. wanna watch fri the 13th also the same. cos i dun wish to go back home late since will be working tml and my man has his medical check up the same time i'll be starting my work.

and im kinda shagged but i stil wanna spend tme wit him. to me, dats important(: member da semangatehk nk masok. dgr pasal benefits la, training la, posting la aper la dari shahren. haha. gaji la.. paling important.! haha. maner nnti lau dpt bonus sayer lei dpt aper la. haha. dam funny to think dat we actually can talk about all dat wen its stil wae to early to sae. haha. in the end we end up laughing. haha. but bout the binus thing uh, sounds funn ehk b ehk. haha. u know i know. and u know wad i wan. and u know i'll ketok sekali kale mcm best g2. haha. joking! (:

i love the way we joke around coos i know we're happy inside out(: thoug sad at times. but i wan you to knw dat youre my number one(;

okay, believe it or not, i miss working at ECL. now dat im working at a diff depart which is okay, i still prefer my ECL. so funn to see kak ria just now dwnstair.miss talig to her about her wedding preparations as she would ask me about my opinion. as she realli will teach me llots of stuff about the work dat im gonna do. oh well i stillgot few departs to go man we'll see how.

its not only ECL im missing im missing SHATEC. i mean my mates. my classmates. my lecturers. my sleeping moments. my beating moments with the mates. the eating in class time. the time to wonder, "eh lunch time eat wher uh?" and garrett would go " eat budget food can la. i no money la." haha. dam hilarious. the time where the lecturers i mean the host mentors will go quite u all very noisy. haha. going toilet time wen the lesson gets bored. looking around for TR wen u wanna disturb the new batch. buying drink over at the pathetic machine. haha. and when leessons drag till 4 plus 5, people would go down and smoke and buy chips for me. haha. and find host mentors regarding time table. how diff is dat to the working life now wen u dun get to see your familiar faces and have to adapt to changes every 2 to 4 months? sucks isnnt it. it realli feels diff. oh well, gotta bear with dat, my 2 years of study time with the classmates has gone. shall see dem for graduation. long wae to go ):

oh well, till den! (: i love khai.

2009-05-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

dun test my patience for sure ill fight back with you. i dun give a dam how old u are, wen u dun give a dam respect to me and you dun even know me and start judging talking and saying words dat totally aint me and being harsh to me, i dun give a farking dam about u for sure. and i swear you'll get you retribution for dis. "makan boleh sembarang makan, ckp jgn sembarang ckp." ingt tu. and for fuck sake, kau yg terhegeh2 tanye pasal aku from day 1 so jgn step mcm aku yg salah and berbual sembarang. ive told my department people, i may look stuck up in the ferst place cox dats just my facil face look like, but wen u know me and we can click, you know i aint dat wae,even bestie know dat. ryte huda? he's just a freaking asshole who seeks attention. no wonder youre freaking no married till now though your age limit is already so freaking...wadeverrr.. i cn just forget but the words you use freaking mcm sial..and aku sumpah, ull contiue doing dis, ull get a piece of my mind and for sure my bf and fam is all behind me as they know bout dis. i shall not sae much, just frekaing upset,angry and frusfrated over a freaking gatal idiot who seriously pissing me off cos of the harsh words said when you dun even know the real me. chee*** fcuk off my sight.

oh well, forget it such a asshole ruining my mood. on a brighter side, my man has been accepted to the singapore polis force. which i am pretty much very very happy about. but that means he booking in next month. fast ryte. as much as september is already so near, wad more june. and im left with only less den a month before me and you gonna be a distance away. seriously my man, if u happen to read dis, im pretty much happy. happy giler at least i dun have to worry dat youll be away like in army, but i can sense the distance apart. im sure im pretty much strong now. i know ure my man, and ull alwasy be der for me.

wad if wen u go in i happen to have prob with dat idiot again? i wun be able to talkto u face to face and vent my anger and tell u the while story wth my lil actions and you know la ryte hw i am. i have to like secretly make a call while im on duty to talk to u as you have certain tyming to call. i have to adapt to the changes. adapting to the new environment alrdy. which i am pretty much worried. i hope youl guide me thru with dis and u, as well play a part to be with me though far apart but our heart is near. fingers crossed that nothing will happen yaw. cos u know deep down, no one, and i mean no one can stand me execpt you. and only you. i hope god will give me the strength to go thru dis with you yah. god will give u the strength also. i just need you before u go and serve the country. spend time with u. (;

2009-05-11T22:38:00.004+08:00

back back back again. just feel like blogging. using akak's lappy. my lappy mintak kene ram one side. haha. but still syg that lappy. ntg much happen todae except i got fetched by the man from work. talked to him all about wad happen todae.

another new people to meet and new environment.i love the place there just that i wun sae much la. the man know wads in my heart as usually i will cry my hearts out when im with him and he's the only one who understands and at least comfort me. (; thanks.

and we head over to my hometown and haad dinner shall not elaborate much but im pretty much shagged today. tml will be another dae. 2 weekss please pass asap. pls. ):

i miss sch. i miss projects.i miss the classmates.i miss the host mentors.i miss gg sch with tracy. i miss gg out everydae with the man. i miss movie dates.i miss my fam outing.i miss watching tv alot at home.i miss waking up early to go sch.i miss sleeping in class.i miss shopping. i miss alot of things! i realli do miss alot. ): i miss gg out with my gfs. my sg mates. my classmates. everyone. boyfie,i love you. chow people. enjoy your daes.

*told the man today bout wwad i shud do a year from now but he told me its still early to plan. but told him a year wwill pass pretty soon and u wun know it cumming. still hard to say if i would like to stick in these workplace. i like my department not. the ferst department. still thinking. have to start from scratch. pay? not dat fantastic for full timer. still wondering. tourism. definately the next choice.. but wad? still cnt make up my mind. got less den a year to think. now i know wad is it like to be in my uncle;s shoes. a stable career? just diff. now maybe i find it easy cos no fam. wad if im getting married in future? car? bills? haha. thinking too far. but its just me. planning ahead. i have my own reasons for that. only the man knows. i hope u understand. okay its random. just sum tought that ive been thinking about. oh well, chow for real now. htc pro.....(:

2009-05-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

i guess everyone in this world knows today's special occasion,10th may that indicates Mother's Day. just wanna wish all Mummy's all there Happy Mother's Day. (:

Friday
Nothing much. went cdc as usual evey week to have my prac. getting very use to the car. learn my parellel parking. getting more challenging every lesson to me. insyallah, i hope to get my licience by end of the year. at least wen my baby go off to camp, i can send him. ill pray for you also dearest no worries. even if i dun get my driving licience by dis year, i still can fetch u go camp if i aint working. (: no worries baby, we will work things out. i cnt remember wad we did dat dae, all i know we went back home after dat, we ate, i did cook some chicken wings for him, den plan for the suprise birthday cake for cik wan and we went off to cp, me and dearest only to get cik wan's present.(: cik ani's fam came later with cik leha and we all ate as usual. (:

Saturday
Woke up finding dat lady red cum visiting dam irritating my tummy hurts big time but luckily i had my PInky panadol to help me ease the pain. abou 2 we left house head to bugis and dearest meet us over at bugis junction as we'e having lunch over at seoul garden. more of dunch! (: i swear i had total fun teaching cik wan and akak wad to eat and stuff. we were laughing our ass off. it was like a mini celebration for early mother's dae and cik wans birthday. (: cik wan wore his new shirt from topman dat cik ani bought for him. so kiut. (: walk ard bugis and help cik wan find his perfect watch at swatch. haha. a gift from the lovely wifey. all expenses paid for. den they left us alone and head to marina barage. while me and khai had our own time togada.(: did sum shopping.(: and bought grandma a beg which she claimed she wanna use to for rayer. cute kn. haha. (:

Sunday
my lil baby came over to my crib. settle dwn for a while. i was surfing the net while he actually fell asleep. after eating 3 prata and sum macaroni. dam cute. i actually took pictures of him sleeping which i probably will post it in the next post(: now lazy la.(: den while he was asleep i get ready as we're head to expo. well, went there for a lil while den head to popeye to eat and cik leha joined us. (: i had funn. as usuall. azmi was der his mouth dam kaypo i tell you. dam funny.(: got a free ride home(: camwhore alot today, and if my lappy is not beaing a bitch, ill upload the pictures yaw. (: bought cik leha gulian chocs(: mothers dae gift. the tought that counts. and i bought myself a ribbon clip from helen which i found it dam cute(: so slack ard the airport.(: had funn realli. (:

currently actually wearing babay's jersey. just miss being with him though just meet up with him (: i love his jersey as it still has his smell to it at least a lil. (: told him before dat i like his smell.(: cos wen hes not ard at least i know hes in my mind my heart and my soul (: nothing will change. i still love you as much as i fall for you for the very ferst time. (:

russ called me while i was otw to expo. talk to him for a while and garett and dinesh happen to be with him. so talk to garrett as well, need to do some catching up as i kinda miss the class environment and they;re crazy attitude in class which makes my life complete besides my fam and khai. (: will meet up soon once there's a chance. and lucky dinesh has found a hotel sumwhere near my workplace a new hotel.and apparently my close fren has left the hotel maybe for good. i wish u luck ok. anything beep me. and pls if can continue as part time hopefully. ):

okay peeps, till next time. gonna sleep will be wokring tml! tada!
*loved

2009-05-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

blardy head is spinning like nobody's business. and for fcuk sake i just cant stand the heat todae. but sumhow wen i entered the exec lounge for work, it seemed so cold. plus these terrible headache is driving me nuts. on the other hand my heart is missing my dear man. been daes since we've spend time together. most frusfrating thing ever. mit ups the past few daes was for just few minutes and goodbye due to busy working schedule plus the need to go home and rest and sleep cos why, next dae working. finally ie got my dae off. till sun and will be reporting to work at 11am over at concierge. for now till sun wont be thinking bout work cos i had enuff. my 1st home for the year 2009/10. okay ebuff bout that.

dearest khai, i know its been a little tough on us ever since the working life has started for us. trying to juggle up our time with the family,ourselves and rest time and it seemed that we're preety much so exhausted. ut im just glad that we both know that we're trying very hard to meet each other despite ending late every night and trying to catch up with the last train before we went off. i thank you so much cos uve been very patient with me waeting for me and looking at me while im at work. we both did. i did peep on you while ure working and you know dat waeting for u to end your shift. dats the lil small things we do to catch up on the daily lifes we had ryte.despites the fights we had the tears we've shed be it visible or non visible we're still gg on strong cos i believe that either waes,im too attached to you vice versa but in a good wae, we still can manage with our own lifes for now. still struggling but we're coping with dat. i just want you to know that im willing to do anything also as long as at least i get to see a 3 times a week at least even fot that 15 mins of us being together holding hands and exchanging hugs and kisses. it means alot though. its just a month and we've got more months comming up. (:

for fcuk saek, im kinda regret getting the current fone im using. frickle minded yes i know. but for fcuk sake, i could get the same price for dat thing above can? mcm sial. still eyeing on that thing above. i dun care. dats for now. unless sony erission come up with a X1 kinda fone but cheaper for many users to use. ryte? (: i just like dat kinda slide with that lil keypad. *im eyeing on you, and will not stop till.....i get it? perharps? *gives that cheeky look* (:

alritght im done for now, will be having my prac tml and dearest will be fetching since we're gonna cook after quite some time not doing that.(; and there will be a suprise cake for the bdae boy tml(: before i foget, enjoy your weekend people, wont be updating unless i have the free time for now i nid to spend time with the love ones. and in case ive got no time or i forget again, well my brain memory realli sucks you know, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THESE BABIES BORN IN MAY:

Mohd Safaruan( pak cik ku tersyg)

Tracy LEE (my sengkang classmate)

Constance Cheong ( the twin of my snegkang classmate) HAHAH!

Isaac Lim ( my Beaast fren,errrr yah...)

Murni Maswari ( my cute lil sis,my bestie)

Dearest baby mum's birthday today!

DONE! (: you tought me to be patient, which makes me love you till death.

2009-05-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

been missing missing missing for the past few daes or weeks i suppose! well since the start of work ive been predicting dat for sure my blog some how is gonna be abandon by me for like a few weeks or daes. well end work at 6 todae but spent time with the man before he left for home at ard 10plus todae. (:

work has been preety much funn to me thought tiring. well waet till i go other department its even worst i guess. even now i dun have much tyme for the cyber world anymore which i think soon im gonna be like entering the net for once a months i guess which pretty much explains why im gonna return the internet that i loan for the ast 6 months. since i no longer use it for the past one month, might as well i save up my 20bucks before taxes (haha) to my bank account ryte. use cik wan's wireless. oh well will do it soon since ive got 3 off daes straight starting from fridae. WHY? because ive been working non stop since last tues till now. reason being i had my off dae one sun the week before last week.and last week my off was on mon. get wad im trying to sae?

haha. if you catchh no ball den its okay. (: kuang3. cos i think i understand wad im saying larh. haha. so well since tues till now im working non stop. till thrus actually. 10 days straight. reason being this week is my last week in front desk. they owe me one PH for labour dae. since dis week is my last week i had to clear my off daes. so sat is vesak dae. my PH. sun is my official off dae. so i will be slacking from fridae till sun! woohoo. like finally.(: happy bangeet kn kn kn ? haha. well i guess people who are alrdy been in the working world would understand how it feels to hve a dae resting at home and spending quality time with your loved ones. (:

pay has come. though its just a tiny lil pay we had it means alot to a trainee like us as we had pay for all the hardwork we did at the same time working. now we know it aint easy to earn that peny. well we all know we all have been told about dat. im sure once in a while parents will say dun waste that money of urs, its hard earn money. but u wunt know dat unless u urself workes hard for that small amount of money which sumtymes people grumble also why? because its not enough for ur own expenses.im struggling over here to try and save up and not even touch my savings but to spend on wad i have from my pay. i guess this is part of learning to grown up. (:

okay. it will be too much to explain on hws work but im coping with it. trying to remember dat i have to get my concierge roster from mr karim and not mr gan thish cumming thrus.maklumla, im still young yet ive got the syndrome of STML. wtf. haha. kak ria has been nice teaching me, having funn with her and all the other front desk people especially the executive club people since im being attached there, people like the two tony(xu&lee). alex,joanna& ria. evry one makes my dae at Smc almost a good one(: lookking forward (: no words can explain but for now im good.(: just a lil shagged.

spending quality tyme with the love ones is really a challange for me. working non stop and spending more time at Smc makes ut harder for me. but lucky i have understanding man and fam.(: spending time with the man to me is important as well. w/o me knowing he'll be away for the national service soon. but dear this love dat we have been building up for years will not go away and be crushed just because of you serving the nation. you know wad i mean. distance we may be apart but in heart, it wont. and the fam plays a part so ill spend my free time with dem wen baby not ard.(: never letting go(: no pictures for now. ive been talking alot. typing i mean and for sure i actually have some more things to talk about just that im freaking tired, i nid to msg the man cos im missing him alrdy thirdly i need my beauty sleep as tml will be working in the afternoon but i just need extra rest as im freaking shagged. till deb people. enjoy wad life has been set for you. as no matter hw hard the challenge is, there will alwasy be a happy ending at least some story to tell.

p/s: the man whom i mention is khairul anwar, my man.(:

2009-04-27T00:03:00.004+08:00

nothing much to update. today and tml will be my off daes. sundae is for this week and mone is for next week which means i gotta work for the rest of the daes and my weekend are burn but i can still go out as sun ill end at 4pm. and the rest of the daes oh well 11 plus maybe. oh well. wad to do. :

and to my dear man, i wish you all the best tml. dis is a stepping stone for you. for your future if it permits you to do so. and thanks for the foto, haha. steal one from you. i hope wad ever you do will always be okay for you as i dun wish to see you not happy with the things youve got (: had so much fun time with you today and thanks so much okay. (:

tml got prac to attend. perharps shall buy my skin products as well and if the man is early can catch a movie but i dun wish to be gg home late. i just wanna have nouff rest as will be working night shift. and dat means after kak ria go home at 9 i wont be at the exec lounge will be at front desk which mean im in a totall lost cos im still a lil baby at cheacking in. dats wad we're called. babies(: will be going over to concierge like 2 weeks from now. a lil scared. padahal same department! (:

can i just get thish hair back for god sak. i miss dis hair. i just wan my fringe to be dat wae and shall not bother my hair length cos its growing. *thinking* (: *flips hair* alright enjoy you week ahead! (:

nothing else matters when im with you,

cos i know despite the dangers that'll cum,

youll always be der for me,

protecting me so i wun be hurt at all,

and even wen one drop of tear came outta my eyes,

you'll tear with me, despite at tymes i know you'll hold it back and tired to be strong.

and for dat, youre someone who steals my heart and soul.

my baby youre the reason i still have the courage to live

2009-04-24T21:54:00.004+08:00

great. just gonna blog for a short while. im freaking tired. dam shagged from work. made more frens over at the diff department due to training from Q works and Name recognition. meet nice2 people around. dam friendly. well, hospitality industry ryte? im working in a hotel futher more. wad more do you expect.? coping well now. but i hope evrything will turn out fine(:

yesterdae marks the exact 30mnths. 6 more months to go and we will be 36, which will be exact 3 yrs. and for a moment i got shock dat the man, has been alrdy called by the government to serve wad is being called National Service here. haha. got ntg to sae its the rules. my army boy. but he'll be asking for interview for the police force. even his ferst bro also wants to join the police force. well we will see hw things go. i pray that you get love. and mummy will pray for you n your abg. insyallah dpt.(: lau tk pon we have to follow wad has been set and i will always be by your side. (: though we will spend leesser time, ill be busy with work for sure and no worries thish relationship has been a strong one now. (; oh well, im not dat worried. the faster you go in the faster i will see you. (:

i really dun kno wad else to blog seriously cos my days is always filled with work, laughter with the pple i love and care and spending time with the man and my beloved fam. wad else can i ask for? ntg else. seriously.(: and i went thru my old pictures and dis is wad i found. haha. my old pictures. i miss the old me nye look. seriously. gosh. i hope by the end of april ill lose weight.shit man.i want my old hair, my old me, my old size, my everything.

haha...and i found dis! (:

(: alright. enjoy you weekend people! gotta go ZZZZZZZZZ working tml. tada!

2009-04-21T21:42:00.007+08:00

i seemed to have free tme today for quite a while. since ive got ntg to do cos my man is busy working now. cos todae is the end of my 2nd dae orientation. for the past two daes we have been having orientation. together with the other new team members from the other departments. its been fun cos we make more new frens from other department as for sure i know that ill be all ard the hotel in various departments so ill be making more and more new frens. they are such lovely people. fun to get along with. so far so good, excpt some that kinda hard to click along la. well, there wont be godd people all ard the work place ryte as for sure not only at my work place you have all these problems. but as far as im concern ive never make anyone angry and i hope i wun. i wish to have good work relationship with everyone and try to make each and every one happy at least(:

and ive made i mistake. haha. perharps im sleeping la while reading aikho's msg. i mostly mid shift not midnight shift! kuang3! mate blur2 ader hati nk bace msg. haha. of course la youll get dam tired la after work. your hard work is paid of wen you get your salary at the end of the month or early month. earning money is definately not an easy task. to get yourself a meal to eat with that money you earn, haish. its different. money hard to find but easy to go. you people know wad i mean. but nevertheless, its ok. as long as the place is a nice place to work you got people whom you can go along well with is fine.(: im contented with life.

meet up my man for a while and walked with him. hida tag along as after he had his dinner break i went over to had waffles at gelare with huda. funn funn. like finally i get to see my man after a while not meeting. we've been busy working dat we hardly spend time with each other. i really hope dat we will spend more time together. wen work started, we eventually miss each othe company alot. and even meeting up for a while and the sacrifice we've make just to meet for a while and catch up on stories really make my dae. thanks for the late night walks after work & sending me back home. i m glad to be able to waet for you after work and go back together. (: at least i get to meet you, see your cute and charming face, smell the scent of your body and get a hug from you and salam you every time i see you, makes my dae. really. i hope wad we plan for the future will await us.(: just between you and me my man. and soon, were turning 30mnth. 36th month 6 mnth frem now? (:

and 6 mnth from now we're getiing our craziest gadget together kn. haha. we're like so crazy alrdy bout thsih thing dat we're willing to save each month just to get that in oct. we will save up and decided not to use the whole pay money for the month and be pokai the following daes. so yah. and apparently if youre wondering bout wad we're saving for, its the ipod touch. (: alrite. im kinda lazy to elaborate, and my man will be finishing his work soon, so i'll be gone for quite some time for work la. haha. will be updating if ders really time(: take care people!

chachanwar gilleeer sangat ngn dis gadget!

2009-04-19T08:47:00.003+08:00

gosh im going to blog for just a short moment. plus im not gonna blog everydae alrdy people. in 1 hour and 30 mins time im gonna bathe and get ready to go work again. i just hadmy off day yesterdae plus my off dae will always be spent on DRIVING prac, SPENDING TIME with the man whom i love wholeheartedly & my lovely family and SLEEP. sleeping has been like so easy dese daes. home, bathe, sleep. no nid to eat. not dat inportant. one day eat once. kuang3. pathetic. but ts okay. wok life is like dat and im getting use to eat. and my man has got himself a job whichs makes me easy wont have to worry. but too bad this week ive got tons of mid nite shift baby. but we will pull thru ryte. and you said smthn which makes me smile today. and after work, ill definately waet for you for our workplace is just like 2 bus stops away plus i dun mind to walk as ive got time and i just wanna mit you(: just like wad you said, i tk kisah i pnt ke tk just as long i can mit you(: tanks for the understanding. and ill do the same to be understanding wen ure wokring or da masok ns next time(: we need to work things out so things wont go the wae we dint want it to go ryte(:

work has been great. learn so much things from the seniors and most are frrensdly.(: kinda lazy to elaborate but okay la.(: before i end my post, HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY FIFI & HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO DAYA(baby's sister). BELATED. 17TH AND 18TH APRIL. had fun with fifi, trace, zac,big g, aneh, stance(glad to hug n mit u even for a while!) i love you guys and alrdy missing you guys.

* baby, nothing else matter more then you. you shud know that(: takecare while im working ok. i can only take care of ur needs wen im off work and buy tings for you to eat and stuff yg. i love you. you must take care. dun get overwork. (:

2009-04-12T21:31:00.004+08:00

like finally ive updated my blog. ive been rather busy trying to spend time with my dearest hubby, meet up with gfs, meet up with my dearest wanted waitress,helping the juniors/cikgu out with syf and family. dat explains the lack of pictures cos they re way too many pictures to upload i cant seem to do dat cos im like gonna sleep soon cos tml is like my freaking ferst dae of work and i cant seemed to stop worrying about wad will happen. maklom la, takot gileer sak. so tml will be reporting to work at 830. but as usual i will end up being early further more i have to wear the uniform and do my hair and blablabla. (:

Tuesday
went over to yio chu kang secondary school, intial plan was to meet murr to have breakfast but the plan was ruin cos that lil gerl was still sleeping once i reach amk so i head over to her place as usual her mummy was there to talk to me and ask how i was(: den blabla went off to take bus with nisa and murr. nisa was alrdy in the bus. den head over to sch and see all my junior salam menyalam. haha.dam cute la. help dem with the hair with the make up and everything. was furios with dem at ferst due to the dance. no feel no nothing. kinda lazy to elaborate. dissapointed at ferst but then had some talk over at the bus and CONGRATULATIONS to yio chu kang secondary school again since dis tyme they won gold with honours! (: 5 years straight gold and above. no doubt we;re still standing and maintaning the tittle. never oncer gif up. the last part wen me and the rest of the mantan2 went over and run towards dem, they were all happy. ive feel the dance and you guys really make me wanna dance like how i use to be wen im ur age. hidop kn semangat tu yg.(: even the juniors(;

Wednesdae
had my practical lesson. parking da sweeeeee. happy happy gerl! (: my man whom i love wholeheartedly, (: fetched my from cdc to ermmm, home? issit? i swear i cant remember. for sure spend time at my house. cos i usually have the greatest time with him over at my house.

Thursday
Meet the wanted waitress! meet up with the rest at dhobby ghaut without jj cos she finish work at 6pm. caught knowing. was fun but the ending part abit funny la. haha. before the movie we had to waet for an hour. but the time seemed to pass prety fast as we have not meet for ages. we're still the same. keep on talking and keep on making jokes and laugh. oh yah we had ben n jerry's. yum yum. satisfy my cravings. hehe. den off to watch the movie. head over to tamp cos we decided to eat pizza hut or i cnt remmember wad with jj but the plan was ditched wen we reach tamp by cab! buang duet kn! (: cos tamp was freaking full! mcm nk rak! dam irritating. and jen jeng jen! went over to my home town to eat pizzahut! and farhah's boyfie cam. opps! cnt remember his name(: dam hilarious! laugh out loud i swear! home sweet home(: i love you gerls as much okay(: meet up soon.

Friday
went out with grandma early in the morning cos she was pissed with someone in the house. den trew temper on b but i was chilling malas nk lyn cos i also want to get out of the house.(: no offence. den meet my man together with grandma and head to parkway parade. shop (: two tops onlyyyla.den buy for grandma ermmmm cadar! i choose! (: den eat at banquet and ermm had funn la! hahaha(: den as usual back home with my man! (: again! (: saayang dier!

Saturday
went over to clarke quay! asked for jobs(: saw shasha in the train. den off to town to get my shoes but we walked ard ferst as per normal. walk n walk. lazy la to elaborate. den head over to simei to eat at our fav restaurant, eatzi(: blablablaaa, went to tamp and shop. Tampinese 1. topshop, dorothy perkins and cotton on.(: few hundreds buck fly fly flyyyyy! did so much shopping! penat sioolll...home sweet home. dearest tmn me at home again(:

Sunday, TODAY
nothing much. head over to dwntown and watch movie. fast and furios 4. dam nice. worth the money watching. we head over to pastamania to eat before we catch the movie. cos im preety much hungry. gotta rush as we had only like 40 mins or so. i cnt finish up my cabonara while my man tought that the creamy chix was filling too! din finish up the soup and drink. smuggle in my drink and choc mousse since i cant finish it up! (; the man was laught out at me. thanks ehk b you! but in the end dapat bwk masok jgk! haha. den bought stuff at ntuc and head home.(: ezlink card tk bw pandai kn aku. coin pun tkde. in the end pergi balek naek cab! fcuk. haha. head to my crib and as usual had fun spending time with him.(: dadeh sedap ehk b? nenek ask him to sleep la pt bilek kac bantal and stuff. jealous i! cos we all were at my room. me the man n nenek(: so funn! (:

my man, dun worry about me okay. im just sad cos im starting work and wun have much time for you. per lag wen u da masok ns. but im sure we will pull thru kan. u know and i know syg. i cnt explain much. by the hugs we had just now before you left, you know dat i feel dam sad u even ask me not to be sad as if we're not meeting. you know how i feel and i know how u feel about people asking me out. we've promise and i will hold dat promise to you and never let go. (: youre my man and will always be mine. and ill always be your own baby gerl.(': youre my pillar of strength and the man who have open my eyes to something called love.

to all my classmates, happy working and see you in a year time! (: i love you dhm407a.

2009-04-06T22:04:00.003+08:00

have not been blogging for the past two daes. ntg much cos im perfectly enjoying as it was supposed to be (: but didnt mean my khaian. his mummy was sick. she kena food poisoning. im sure you all have either read the newspapers or either heard from the televisyen itself. the geylang serai rojak stall. and apparently before this hundred have gone to the hospital to check up and lucky baby's mum is okay after eating medication. and to my suprise, one have just died todae. i really dun know wads gonna happen to the owner. gosh. serious shiit sia this problem. oh well never mind.

well today was quite a pretty busy day for me. i went over to cik leha's house early in the morning to gave her azmi's milk powder and frozen curry puff. thanks to babylove for heloing me order every single time. help me order help me get cheap price and help me send it to my house(: appriciate it lots. then head over to bank cos i freaking lost my i banking device. CB. shiit idk where it went. then head over to giant(: shop for household chores and spent like 100 plus for that! yahla. i cnnot depend on my uncle to buy all the stuffs to eat at home. moreover im just his niece who stays with him. ever since im alone in this world w/o my parents, ive been staying with my aunty and uncle. cnnot expect to burden them more. only me and me understand wad im feeling. i just dun wanna burden any more of my family members as they have been so supportive over me all these years.

and i hope they will understand me further if i said i dun wanna continue study anymore. at least not for now? i want some part of me badly wanna study futher, taking bachelor,double major in marketing and hospitality but idk. idk wads stopping me. i just hope you;ll understand. i wanna werk and feel the real world out there. let me feel the pressure and let me decide. let me get married when the time is right and give me blessing. im sure you guys wants the best for me and at east i think dis is so far wad ive plan for future my future ahead. the rest of the people out der have family to discuss about their future not for me. i have to do it all by myself. and for now, dis is my plan. at least it is.

and my love, i totally had a fabulous time with you. the lauging moments we had and the fighting moment over at my house. hilarious. shopped at giant like we own the place. find stuffs with you and just being with you makes my another half complete. i fell i have and gonna have a family real soon. never once i felt this wae. maybe i feel better dis wae and i wish it will stay dis wae. cooking for you has always been great. like today, no matter wad you'll be der and taste my food. haha. well, im glad ive found you. only time will tell if youre my truly another half. to be with, till the rest of my life. and only time will tell if we will be legally together. and im so touched by you mum's word. "anwar da kua tau nk ambek shasha. take care okay biler keluar pasal ujan ader guruh sumer" its simple and sweet yet it feeels that there so much meaning for me. she's like my mum too(: i remember that picture? it was our ferst few daes togada(:love her and i love you (:

kay people, need to wake up early to help out my juniors and cikgu tml! have a good weekend! and go yckss PERTAME make us pround as always! (:

2009-04-03T15:33:00.003+08:00

intend to blog yesterdae but lappy was being suck a bitch. haha. well most of the time. (: din do much yesterdae i was wae too tired cos i was busy cooking. intital plan was to go jogging or swimming. but my dearest was late cos he has to meet up with sam to pass some forms. so he reached my house ard 4plus. and before that i went over to cp. plan was to buy my purse la. den i wanted to cook. so i went over to cold storage and bought prawns! (: big ones. yum yum. den i bought some groceries myself. bought low fat milk, GO milk, milo cereal, and some other stuff which i cnt seemed to remember. settled some stuff at atm. and now i remembered i have yet go down to the bank and tell them dat ive lost my ibanking tingey. shiiit... shuld i go todae? oh well, we'll see how. so yah. head homw and start cooking. cook black pepper prawn and dadih. so wen babylove reached home, i cook egg just in case the prawns not enough for him. khai is such a big eater(:

so after eating, no actually while eating cik leha called ask me to acc her to do her hair. cos she scared azmi would disturb her and cnt siit still. so after azmi had his hair cut, me and babylove bought him to eat macs. den sit outside salon and walk n walk and walk. hahah. to kill time. imagine all the wae from 7 to 9 we had to kill time? finished eating at 745 like dat. sit outside fer 15 mins jek da pnt giler! haha. den we walk2. lazy to elaborate but i had funn cos azmi and babylove make me laugh! haaha(: bought sutfs.. bought perfume for babylove(; and some more barang2 la. lazy to mention. and den before cik leha called us, we alrdy reach the salon so we head back home cik man send baby back and me. home sweet home. dam tired(: hehe. so yah dat was yesterdae 2nd april. todae i stay at home. kinda tired. baby also. since we;re gg out both weekends. so todae be good gerl and boy. (: tml maybe watching movie with akak and cik wan. not conferm yet. den sun off to see mummy naddy and her son muhd adam(: hehe. so yah. next wekk more putings i gues..

currently watching ventura 3 with akak. dam hilarious. so cute the boy so fat(; haha. oh well, till den kinda lazy to type alrdy. still dun know weather i wanna go bank. 2 hours more before the bank closes. shittttt. shall decide later. till den. enjoy you weekend people since its FRIDAY today! (;

2009-04-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

ive gottg much to blog actually. just feel like typing kuang kuang. and its April FOOL. and in fact no one kena fool by me and i din fool anyone. yah.. just dun feel like it plus its like wadever la. okay anywae, ntg much happen todae. meet dearest 11am. went to eat at ljs cos i missed the rice with black pepper sauce! haha.before dat i went over to mango to see sume stuff. den persuaded hubby to let me buy. after much negotiation i finally get to buyy! haha. i wanted to buy two top n one bottom.. in the end bought one one top and one bottom. tu pon bf da mengomel. dala dala cepat bayar! *bluek* rolls eyes! =p haha.. but nvrmind at least can buy. better den ntg. den went to shop ard for my stuff again. some make up stuff for work. still need to buy more stuff. den i head of to driving lesson. den dearest waet and we cabbed back to cpafter which. he went off to meet ad and i do my own shopping. bought make up stuffs again and went to walk for just a little while. bought my stokings. while walking towards to buy my stokings, i saw dis faboulous guess purse! fuck sake, its dam preety! i could buy it but been spending too much money and for sure dearest will kill me if i were to buy cos he's gonna sae " you nie ehk b, tk syg duet ehk? susah tau nk dpn duet!" and ill go okok... and just smile away. the purse cost 66 bucks ti be exact. dam. haha. its not like the normal guess purse which i usually dun seem to have intrest in, its one of a kind. white and black. fav colour and it has dis similiar pattern as my recent purse from wallet shop. im gonna get it k. as promise waet till i get my pay. one more month to go. my very ferst pay. haha. and i told dearest i will save 300 from the allowance. shit! haha. den 200 to spend. haha. hahahaha. and im supposed to save 1.2K till the end of attachment. (: boley save2!. ane tau la kn...hahah...

everyone is growing up so fast. without you knowing, youre becoming young adults. and next year, i wont be regarded as a teenage anymore. young adult. it seemd so fast. its been 2 years plus comming 3 years since im with khai. 5 years since mum left. 3 years since im outta of yio chu kang sec. and few daes since im officially outta SHATEC and starting work like real soon. it seemed so amazing. i dont know why. and speaking of which, ive yet meet mummy naddy! haha. nadiah i mean. plan was cancelled. cnt meet the timing. so will meet up for sure since its aisha's birthday (: for sure okay dis time(: aand see, even one of my fren now has given birth. its like so amazing! so fast~! well, all ive gotta do is just adapt with all dis situations dat i have and currently going thru. cos i know ill be able to cope i hope. and im scared. scared for first dae of work. 12 more daes. will be counting dwn.. grrrrrrrrrr..........

babylove,i hate all the small little fights we have dis few daes..youll get fucked up and so do i. im sorie cos i know i will get overboard sometimes. but i just dun know why im too hot tempered. only you know how to handle me. and only you know wad ill do to persuade you to follow my waes and what i want only you will contstantly wanna see me smile and not showing you tat grumpy face wen ever we fight and i constantly wont give in only you have the patience to put up with my nonsensical attitude only you have the courage to be out in thee public and be embarrased with me wen we fight only you have the all little courage to be with me all dis while only you have the balls to meet up with all of my family menbers though you know some of them are preety strictt with me yet you willing to take the risk and meet them years ago only you knows how it feels in my heart alone all dis while only you can stand my loudness and all my fucked up words only you have the courage to come to my house give me folwers without feeling embarrased with my family members and make dem smile only you know how to handle small kids when youre with me only you knows how to entertain every single small cousins i have and only you who will gif me suprises during my bdae with all ur flowers and ballons without feeling akward & lastly only you willing to do all dat just for me. thank you khairul anwar, youre such a sweetheart (: dun play with my heart again..

2009-03-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

im loving my front office uniform. i swear i do! yes as u all can guess i went over to my workplace just now to had my uniform fitting. meet huda at clarke quay. haha. i was late(: for 10 mins. couldnt decide on wad to wear actually.. dat explains why i was late. sorry huda now ur turn to waet for me(: we got our schedule just now. i had to do front office ferst followed by concierge. i got to do my favourite department ferst and the last few months starting from 2010 i will be doing my F&B over at blue potato restaurant. was kinda happy la. but i actually wanted to do front office toowares the end but nvm, sooner or later im gonna do it also so its okay. reporting at work 830am on the 13th. (: while huda at 2.30pm(: nvm. we're still in the hotel anyway. (: so yahhh im so loving my uniformmmm!!! only front office.(: yay yaya! grey favour youuuuuuuuuuuu! (:

okay tomolo will be doing hair before visiting naddy mummy. yes she just gave birth dis morning to a cute little baby boy. will be updating more on dis tml(: idk if aisha bringing din. if he brings i ask dearest to tag along(: cnt waet to see naddy mummy tml. okay, huda dont forget out date tml morning to do our hair done! (: 11am please... and dun forget our shopping date to get our necessary things for work(: and maybe do a mini retail yah!.(: oh yah. just now earlier on after we had sign our new contract and uniform fitting, me and huda were freaking hungry so we had ljs! cos i wanted to eat the rice with black pepper sauce cos i saw traccy eating the other dae like so freaking nice like dat! (: yum yum! indeed it was heaven! khekhe. will eat again soon. hehe. den head down to the cathay and had ben and jerrys! again, it was awesome! ben and jerry's never fail to make me smile. the crunchy waffle basket, the cookies and cream and hot fudge! yum yum! wanted tobuy the whole pin back but they ran out of cookies and cream ): dam sad. but no worries ill find my wae to buy it soon(: i miss the waffle basket now. dam! (:

okay idk wad else to blogg... busy talking with akak,gendut and adeq. so take care people! enjoy your week ahead! md khairul anwar, you owe me a cone ice cream with cookies and cream ice cream over at ben and jerry okay! i dont carre!

2009-03-29T23:21:00.004+08:00

like what ive mention from the previous post, school is finally and officailly over. no need to rush over to school alrdy. preety much contented. but sad at the same time(: alrite going down to merchant court tml but huda have yet to conferm me about the timing. msg her and asked if she could accompany me do my hair(: but still haven replied. ask me only one question what time but never reply. apa daah! (: pls msg me asap. cos i nedd quite some time doing my haor dats why i ask u. hmm.. oh well... never mind... hope will get the work schedule and the new contract terms tml..

nothing much happen todae. dearest as usual came over had out lunch. cook for him. den we head down to hosp after a while. grandma gave us the idea of bringing the lappy along as we're still not sure if cik leha can be discharge todae or maybe not at all. upon reaching suddenly the doc sae she can be discharge. haha. den me and dearest was like wahlioa eh.. waste time and my fare shitty shitty bang bang betol... so took cik man's care, head over to bedok corner to buy food back. quite a number la. i bought my favourite cheng ting! (; and todae i swear i drink tons and gazillions of water. from plain water to sweet drinks to gassy drink to chocolate flavored to some other drinks! i had few cups of tea todae, i just can count how much of cups ive dranks. me and dearest actually. fan of lipton tea. den while walking over to take 27 had my coke drink. not finshed. den i bought soursop, vitasoy, milo and mango tea. which i consumed 3 of them(: some half wae some i curik from bf and grandma. haha. den at hosp i thinm i never drink la. haha. den drink cheng ting at cik leha's place. ahaha...at home, drink teas again and lots of plain water... crazy huh...hahaha...(: bloated stomach aku!

saturdae was spent at hosp too with bf and fam. as usual i had tons of funn.. enjoying the presence of my love ones(: i swear i had lottas of fun. and wen hubby went home earlier. me and cuzzy, ekin spend the time watching tv. haha..(: okay la.. have a great week ahead yah people. im too lazy to elaborate much(: i miss my shatec mates can? ): and definately i miss the bf. ); good luck in finding jobs baby! i hope you'll get the job u want!(: much love and huggs!

2009-03-27T21:00:00.003+08:00

im just freaking lzy to post up pictures i swear! im freaking dam shagged due to the lack of sleep from yesterdae night, and soory i did not update regularly since mondae. i have been having exams since mondae till thursdae. and after thursdae, we had our briefing for our working life soon! (; which was heald at the kitchen room. both A and B class were there! hectic like siow i swear. when both class meet, and when we know each other too well, and when its the last dae of sch and last dae of us being der, the noise level was unbearable. even mam couldnt take it some how.

and without me noticing, i just realised that 2 years pass freaking fast.to know that im turning 19 soon, and me leaving SHATEC. some part of me feels good. some part of me feels weird. i dun wanna leave my classmates cox they make my daes in SHATEC a better one. for sure. (: never once i regret that ive been to SHATEC. though we had some bitter experiences and sweet ones, you guys will always be on my heart to be kept as memories. a year from now, we will see each other again in our formal suits and holding that one DIPLOMA IN HOTEL MANAGEMENT cert in our hands(: september 2010 will come..

speaking of my cute lil class we head dwn to aloha st8 after the briefing. to cut it short i had a fablous time with my class and definately my one and only pillar of strength, khairul anwar. he was taking care of me. see me sleep instead of him sleeping. so babylove was looking and staring at me but not sleeping. so sweet of him. he loves watching me sleep even in the bus. i dun know why also. so when the next dae which is todae, the chalet seemed to empty cos one by one my classmates started to leave. some din stay over. but i did though. so yesterdae we exchange hugs and handshakes from all my mates wishing us good luck in our future endevoure. my heart was tearing as much as i want to leave SHATEC i dun wanna leave all of them. their laughter their loud voices their arguments makes DHM april 07 A class wad we are todae. and i believe, my class will be a sucessful leaders one dae(: take care okay DHM april 07 A.(:

im freaking tired. tomolo i have my practical lesson again. maybe will seek out to town to buy stuff tml im still not sure of the plans yet. as for now, cik leha has been warded to changi hospital to have the stone taken out i guess. i have to take care of azmi, her son, as cik man got to work and no one is taking care of him. as much as i can do, i will treat him well and take care of him just like how you take care of me last time.(: no amount of money can ever be replace by what you guys did for me. and the rest. i will try to do my very best. i hope you'll get well soon cik. cos azmi and cik man need you.. dont worry me and khai will visit you tml. (:

i dont know what else to sae. ive got mixture of sadness and happiness now. but for now im contented. (: i love my class i love my boo i love my family. (: babylove, lets spend the time that i have now before work okay? gosh im starting work on the 13th. mon got uniform fitting! grrr....haha. nvm.. happy happy gerl!! okay la. you peeps enjoy your weekend okay. (: take care!

2009-03-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

today marks the exact dae we've been togather for 29 months. 2yrs5mnthss. like wad ive said before darla, it has been a wonderful journey being with you. i must admit it wasnt easy for us. you know i know and ill just keep it to myself about it. only you and me. im pround to sae i still love you till bits. never once imagine life without you. i shall not say much cos i know deep dwn you know i love you hell lots.

wish me luck for my upcomming exams.
i shall not blog much cos i need to continue to study my foods production management(: 1 down 3 to go. im proud to say i manage to do half of the business stats.(: fooods management? i shall score hopefully a B.(: bought my issey yester at airport with bf and huda(: will be buying 3 more(: ryte dear. haha. soon okay. (: ive got a suprise for you. gendut, dont forget to bring the tea ok tml. nk try nk try!(: thank you!

babylove, try harder next time okay? ill always be here to support u. remember wad nenek sae ok? (: jangan putus asa! see my grandma loves you!(: mwahs. happy anny babylove ure my pillar of strength.

*primary sch frens, maybe meet up next week or next next week? qin? tag me or msg me? qid, ure into dis also. and you will contact norratul. will try to contact naddy and aisha. still thinking who else in mind? qim? (: try okay! (:

2009-03-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

cheebye.

2009-03-21T22:22:00.005+08:00

my lappy has been giving me problems dis few daes. sumtymes its okay sometimes its not sometimes it stuck and sumtimes its perfectly fine. haha. like wad grandma sae, even humans got their off days and they can be freaking tired why cnt electronic gadgets be tired also? and sumtimes she even say, " kau la maen hari2 pnt la dier. kasik la dier rest kalau yer pon?" which means " why cnt you giv ur laptop a dae rest? " .. kuang kuang kuang. dam funny. she and her funny2 ideas.

which reminds me that i should not be surfing the net thish week as ive got my final exams from mon to thrus. my last exams and im otta SHATEC for good which left us only work to do. and im supposed to be busy studying but some how im not in the mood. well, ive got four subjects left which are , FOOD PRODUCTION MANAGEMENT, BUSINESS STATISTICS, PRINCIPLES OF FUNDEMENTAL MANAGEMENT & BUSINESS COMMUNICATION. 3/4 done in finding the ans to the tips that mr tan gave for foods. buss stats gotta find some one to teach. pom, gotta hell memorise which i have not done so. and buss com which i think i can make it cos its quite alrite. understandable. do 2 papers are alrite. and not the other two. my gpa is only like 2.4. gosh barely can make it. unless i can keep up my conduct which i got an A throughout. which is like a 6 pointer to us(; gosh missing my SHATEC cliques.next week will be the class chalet, exam finish on thrus, intern briefing on thrus as well, chalet is thurs as well actually,as well as the farewell party the sch wanted us to go. wowo... 26th march so many things in hand. oh well..

i did ntg much these few daes. been spending quality time with my KhaiBumBum. (; went out a while den come back to my house. sleep la. watch tv la. entertain fieqa la. and the pass few days he was here, ive been cooking for him. from instant noodle to black pepper bief to frying tons of stuff for the past 2 or 3 daes. he's been eating my cooking. kuang kunag kuang! hot dogs, popiah otak2,nuggets, tahu telur, fries, & etc. it feels great that u appriciate every single thing ive done for you. cooking especially. doing that for you for the pass few daes was mm..i cnt describe the feeling but somehow i kinda like it. (: cooking for you. ill learn more things to cook ok(:

friday we went over to expo and bought tons of food. dearest accompanied me. like ive said he's been sending me to sch and fetching me all these while. he even help me to clear my locker stuff now that its empty. he took half of my books and carry it for me. split half of the books so it wont be so heavy on me. our crumpler beg(; so yah. despite the heavy begs we had, head over to expo and bought stuff to eat at home and cook as well. (: the dengdeng was awesome. i want the black pepper one pls.(: mite consider gg there tml and buy more stuff..(: FFOOD!(: but must remember to study ferst. ok back on the track. den we saw cik leha queue for the adidas sale. freaking long i swear! i head to the halal food fair while she waeted ther. had muffins(which after that cik leha finish it up) and durian pancake! yummmy! den cabbed back home while cik leha still queue for the adidas sale.

today, went bedok reseivour,the petal garden to attend wedding ceromony. i know who got married but idk how to explain who the person is la. close fam of mine also. the food was great! really! i love the lopez(: smthng happen but i dun wish to elaborate. made me open my eyes on the real marriage world out der. not easy. some are full of fears, other happiness which maybe not for long? some who looks happen but in the matter of fact is not? too many to even mention the real situation we have here ryte. life issnt simple after all(: talked to cik ein just now bout some issues. only bf knows wads gg on between me and him. no one else know that. between me and him. just dat i told bf so i got a listening ears cos he always has been a good one(: okay den i head bck home ferst,cos intial plan was to meet huda, since it rained, cancelled, den i wanted tracy to meet me to study den wen i cabbed bck my head gave me problems so i told her i couldnt make it and made notes instead. was so peaceful(:

and here i am blogging wen i can study actually(: okay i gtg now. i hope you guys will enjoy your weekend while ill be busy studying till wed(: and to dearest hubby, good luck for you TP. im sure youll be able to make it since its a very special date for us on that daay(: youll pull thru. even if u dont, u know ill always be here to support you(: and to huda, amacm besok airport pe blaja? aku rindu blaja pt airport la(: lei mkn popeye skali!(: annnd aku nk survey price of perfume laaaa(: got few perfumes to buy though. but not now perharps next week..(: msg aku! (:
take care sweethearts!

2009-03-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

im not missing people except for muhammad khairul anwar which i just meet few hours ago. (: meeting hime again for the next two daes.(: hehe. well im currently looking at some perfumes and i just notice that im missing my sweet smell issey miyake.. and so i was browsing thru the net saw thish webby that selld perfume ranging from 70 plus onwards. so i look out for my issey miyake and thought i had it. but showed it to khai and he said its diff. so idk and have to check it out before purchasing. they are currently having promotion. so was thinking of buying two. one issey miyake and gucci envy me.

well, i just bought my issey miyake and tracy and dearest knows that my cute lil niece broke it. dam saad. i use like only half a bottle? not even half! but wad to do. dis happen the same to my gucci envy me perfume. my grandma accidentally broke it. at our old house at sengkang. togather with the lotion that comes with it. dam sian. heart pain. but the gucci perfume and the lotion really goes well with each other. the smell grow stronger when u use it. of course la! dam ex can. my issey miyake also dam ex sia. 50ml cost me almot 100 bucks. all my ex perfume is not fated for now. but ill get the both of my sweet smelling perfume soon cos i swear i miss the smell. especially the issey. shit. more $$$$$.

lesson startrd late todae 445pm? came for only like wad errr...half an hour? haha. lucky dearest decided to waet for me. he wanted too. but i sae dun nid cos must waet for 1hr 30 mins but he insisted since he was carrying my beg. in the end we took less then half an hour. lucky dont need waet so long. before that, we meet at 1030am to catch our 1120am movie, watched cooming soon. scary. i cover myself with my hoody most of the time. haha. den hed over to pizza hut to have brunch. den walk2 ard when i decided to buy my lingerie! matching! haha i like. but dearest scold me cos he said t was ex. walau u expect me to wear the 3 for 10 uh? some things are meant tobuy ex one okay. haha. den went all the wae to boon lay mrt to buy fruits! den went sch den home sweet home!

haha. my batt is dying! tml got presentation..need to slp early! hots is ending! exams for four days next week and im off to work.! no before dat, class chalet(; will be back soon! enjoy your upcoming days people! (:

2009-03-17T15:49:00.005+08:00

i miss my boo here. been home since 245pm. online and looking for stuff for quite a while already. den i realise i haven book my TP. so i went online and book. so yeah. finally (: july it will be. in the mean time... i shall just go for lesson and make sure im okay by july.. which i think i will... just preety scared for circuit.. seems difficult.. but oh weell.. cik wan has been saying that nvmm.. july ok.. hopefully i pass alrdy by rayer can drive. i pray hard..(: i really hope i can pass by dis year... ibu, i hope you know im doing okay for now.. wish me luck though youre no longer in this world im sure you know wad i want.. called babylove ask him if i really book the date correctly.. haha. scared i cock eye.(:

practically, idk wad to do. perharps will take a nap later. my head is spinning like nobody's business. the weather is horrible this days. one moment it can pour heavily and the other moment its freaking hot. grandma not at home. bibik busy cooking. my dearest fieqa syanise is sleeping soundly. haha. disturb her later(: oh well.. can the dae past faster.. i wan wed to come. so i can meet dearest.(: oh well, going off now. enjoy the rest of the week people!(:

and yah. i just wish to do smnthg which will make me happy. lots of shopping and treatment for my hair. need to check up on wad treatment are available to make my hair betterr. anyone knows? please tell me(: thank you!

*editted part* 9.25pm*
p/s: im still in the state of freaking freaking shock.. my babygerl my bestie, known her since primary sch is pregnant. dueing soon. this thurs? i told her i dam sad she din tell me and my another bestie. but im ok. cos i know she has her own reason. i still love you babygerl. ask ur husband to msg me wen u gif birth alrdy ok? i wanna see ur cute lil baby boy.. hehe. (: jadik in the mean time aku lei jadik god mother dier ehk.(: im so glad ure settled down alrdy.. so happy for you.. since i din hear from you for quite some time. da sanding bilang ok? jemput aku! (:

im still in the shocking moodd..haha. just cnt take it off my mind. so sudden.. okay just ahd my ice cream just not. atap seed and choc flavour..from apek ice cream. ahah. sometimes i think the cheapest choc is nicer then the most expensive ones. i just love the flavour.. cnt help it.. if only they sell in tubs... for sure ill buy. plus the choc flavour has its own flavour.. diff from the rest..seriously.. freaking nice! i bought two. kept one just in case i wanna eat later or tmmrow? (:

i told dearest smnthg todae. b, biler nk tunang? haha. cos i saw dis lady blog she's 20 and she got engage few daes back.. told him cm best g2 ehk. haha. den he say few years dwn will be ours.. i told him im alright... i wanna get a stable job ferst before we proceed on to further things.. so funny. den he's like why so random. i guess jodoh pertemuan sumer di tangan tuhan. only he knows who youre meant to be with and who youll be together with forever.. i just realise that im stepping into the adult world dam soon. we're like making choices for our ownself soon. even now we're alrdy doing it. really dam fast.. just cnt believe it. but oh well stop dwelling about it. just continue with the life we have. and make full use of it(:

okay im done i think? talking with dearest about some stufff!(: tada! (:

2009-03-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

finnally i get to blog! im so freaking happy that my dearest lappy is with me(: sch was at 3pm today. so i head down to tamp before going off to sch. tracy was being so great accompanied me all the wae.(: meet her at 1130am (: sold my fone(: cos yesterdae i bought myself a new fone. yes. samsung omnia! was alright. but not im like struggling and like wad i told dearest,im so freaked out cos i cnt adapt to the new fone. i even told him im willing to change the fone with him. let him have mine i use the old fone of ours. haha. crazy me. shit man i think today im dam hyper and freaking out. i dont even know wat to blog can.o yah! im officially broke can? my lcd for the lappy crack and i paid 265 for it. $$$$$$$$ flow out just like dat... sold my fone for 230. and bought new fone for 498. 498+265-230= $533. siannn.. dats like bomb. officiallly broke yah! freaking shit. oh well, nvm starting work next month. means more money!(:

im missing my dearest like mad. i miss boyfriend so much can. 4 days of not mitting him den suddenly mit for 1 dae the feeling of not satisfied is there. i swear wen he go ns, ill go hyper all the waae missing my dearest one and only boyfriend. and khai, pls. ntg and no one can ever replaced you in my heart. wad happen yesterdae was just misunderstanding between us. you know my reason and thats comming for my heart. really. he's just a past time of mine. and im totally over him. isnt 2 years plus being with you enough to show how much i love u? forgiving you for the mistake youve dona that hurt me most, does dat shows how much i love u and dont want us to drift any further? wad more do i need to show syg? my solution may not be a good one, but i hope u respect me and ill do the better solutions in the future just for you i will..trust me when i say im over him and i love you and no one else.you my pillar of strength.

stance, pls be the cheerful lady i knew since dae one. youll pull thru all dis. trust me. if u need some one call me. if u wan la hor. (: cheer up. tracy, ntg! see you tml! heheh. thanks for accompanying yah!mira, dun worry your link is save with me! (: ignore that lady!(: khekhe. stay hot yaw! goshh.. im freaking tired and wont spend any more time blogging. so yah. gtg for now chatting with my dearest! (: tada!

2009-03-13T20:43:00.005+08:00

im was so engross in finding the phone i wanted just now. but some how they dont replenish the product anymore. was so fraking sad. i even called up a few of the handphone shop to ask if they still have it around. i swear i was so freaking in love with that phone. but if i were to die2 buy that fone but then in th future, how would i sell the fone if i see anohter new fone? i doubt they want it. but i freaking want the fone. but too bad larh. i freaking want that fone. haish. but ive made up my mind to choose between the next two model of this fone. buying it tml. *cross fingers* with my own money okay. recontracting grandma's name la so gotta bring her along. but idk if cik wan allows la. but my money anywae wad.

still thinking between omnia and pixon! (: but actually 3 phone. omnia red, omnia black or pixon black? i dont know. but then im seeking muhammad khairul anwar's opinion. his comming home soon and checking out for me which one better so i can buy the better one and i trust my boyfren(: you should know that b! (: thank you. so tell me by todae okay. saaayaaaangg lo!

and to you muhammad khairul anwar, i miss you hell lots can. its been 3 days already since i see you. i wont be seeing you again tml cos you will be still working. but i happy that you get to sell more lappy todae(: i realli miss you. just cant help it but to constantly looking at my phone for your message. and waet to hear your voice. since i can only message you when you working. tu pon kadang2 onli. the feeling is realli diff la kan. i swear my mental gonna suffer a little when you go ns. but for once, ill be a strong gal and constantly waet for you(: i thank god for giving me a sweetheart like you though at time it hurts. but i think its parts and parcel of relationship and people being in love. endure & patience is the keyword. actually alot la hor. (: okay i shall not drag till further.

idk if im blogging in the weekend. perharps tml la. cos maybe will be going out just to buy fone only. if not also stay at home cos dearest aku kerje. but will meet him on sundae! maybe going IT fair and definately spen time. but idk wad to do will do the planning later! (: okay la! enjoy your weekend people! (:

2009-03-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

i paaasss! (:

yayness.happy. happy! though i did twice for btt now i do my ftt only once dam happy can! (: thank you so much! (: e trail helped me alot also. im so freaking happy. was smiling all the way till i think my muslec cramp. haha. cant help it la. just too happy. like wad i always think ader hikmah disebalik wadever challenges we had. thanks so much though. after sch went over to eat with huda before proceding home. sorry tracy and issac din follow. was freaking hungry den i eat and went home. will accompany you next time(: thanks!
can sunday come faster please? i wanna meet the bf. and i want this fone badly i swear im gonna check the price out tml. im so into the fone now. b, sorie yah. i maybe changing fone la. just badly wan it. realli realli want it. if cheap, u change also k? same. kuang kuang! (: till den! message me soon! im missing you! mwahs!

p/s: i miss muhammad khairul anwar bin kamaruddin!

2009-03-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

dam freaking irritating.. so dam fraking angry with THAT SOMEONE. stop irritating me and just dun message for now please co im freaking angry with you. why cant you have the initiative to message me after werk. so what if u said that im gonna change clothes den otw home din even tell me? u gave me excuse saying do dibrief and got problem thats why late. but otw home cannot msg meh? ure alrd waeting for the farking bus wad? wad the fuck is wrong with you? CCB. freaking angry with you. message me back also dam late. ure freaking making my blood boil. say things like i work wad tired you know can you please be more understanding? then i lei? i sch also wad? i waeting for you to message and thosh is what i get? you shud freaking know why i accuse you that wae. why cnt you simply understand me? if i nvr teach you lesson, you wont learn and understand how to treat me! freaking piece of shit. i dam angry! fuck. idiot.

sch was alrite today. tracy cheer up okay sweetheart. help me buy food okay tml(: thanks. will be rushing down tml.(: need to study liao later. dam siann. dam scared. idk what to do. shit. go outside and read till i get tit all in my head. i hope to do for only one time. if god permits me to do it for once la. haish.

yesterdae, lesson was at 0445pm. so freaking late hor. so me and dearest went over to JP cos i was craving for the hotplate hore fun or black pepper beef la. but wad to do went there lorh. as early as 12pm i was alrdy there. ferst we went to eat as usual.(: ate wad i wanted then i ordered extra nugget but cnt finished apprently. dearest ordered cutlet as usual and mushroom soup. nice(: thenfind the choc i wanted! (: yah. still haven eat lei inside my fridge now. ate two only actuallyh haha. den walk2 till leg pain. had my waffle with ice cream over at one placee. not nice. i dun like it i swear. blueeekk! den walk2 den i saw thish dress i lioke. bought it after so much persuation from me to him. walk2 again then we went over to the interchange and then i bought fruits. dam nice! i wan the fruits from that shop again pls. hehe. den bused down to BB. then walk2 at WM since still got time. den bought drink at CB then eat garlic bread at pastamania. kuang kuang. then walked me to sch.

stuff happen wen i got home. dearest wasnt there. me and tracy only la. we went home and smnthg happen that i cnt take it so i talk to tracy and cried over at the bus. dam sian. thanks tracy. we dropped at CP after sch. den followed tracy to buy her shoes.then took money from one bank and transfer to another. went ntuc buy stuff. on the wae back this stoopid car bump into me. lucky a bit only. but then i dam angry! i almost knowck the freaking car. dam shitty! curse the farking car man! idiot. tracy dam angry for me. (: sweets. tracy darla, dun angry oka? cheer up(: mwahs.

p/s: doesnt mean i blog bout us above, im not angry with you. i am freeaking angry! <3>

2009-03-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

Saturday,7th March 09

initially plan was to stay at home and accompany grandma since she and me will be the only one at home cos akak,cik wan,fieqa and bibik will be away to KL. like what i mention over at my previous post. theyre still not back yet now you know! miss fieqa. alright bck to the topic. so she went out early in the morning leaving me all alone. so khai was waeting for me to kol and ask him to head down to my crib. so i called grandma and ask where she is she said she's at tamp. ask me to come over with khai. so i cabbed there. late as usual. khai get ready alrdy, i still at home. so we he went out i took a cab down. so grandma wanted to check her cpf money if thay are able to withdraw and apparently can only few hundreds. so we took quite a while to line up and bla bla bla. tought of eating but we ditch the plan and decided not to. went over to ntuc to buy food to eat. haha. had fun over at the ntuc with babylove and grandma. den cabbed back home(: shared half with grandma since she initiated to take cab. haha.(: lazy plus got tons of things to bring home.

then went back home.babylove ask me to call aunty kim cos he wanna cut hair. den he went up without me cos i was busy cooking(: he marajuk in the ferst place cos i never follow but in the end he went up himself. so manje. then i finished cooking cooked pasta with alfredo sauce with hotdog!(: yumyum(: den watched RV old show. dam hilarious. played monopoly at the same time. haha. after a while lazy la. in the meantime, the house fonehas been ringing every 15 to half and hour. all my aunty uncle asking grandma if shes okay and stuff. den i ask grandma"takde ke org yg nk ajk mkn? lapar nie" den the fone rang, cik eein called and ask to follow him eat at newton! babaylove followed. since we got no plan la ryte so we went along. after eating, we head over to suntec! walk2 and bought toys for kiki and rifhan. not i pay la cik wati pay. haha. den we walked to royce eat ice cream den walk2 see car and off home (:

Sunday, 8th march 09

girlfrens is loved! meet up with murr,qin, amy and yana! (: i NEVER fail to have fun and laugh and most of the time make ourselves look like an idiot! and qin, i wont forget you "AIR MANI" haha. freaking hilarious. but too bad murr went off ferst cos she need to go and study for her exams as she has exams today. pity you miss so much fun syg. but with you in the ferst place just now, i had fun also. meet up at dhoby ghaut as everyone was straving. eat at mad jack and we practicallly cant decide on what to eat la sy. we took a very long time to decide. actually qin din eat cos she join us at ard 2 plus. cos she need to settle stuff(: den the fun begins when we eat. i was the targetted on from the start. from nampak coli to sec sch daes story and qin keep on asking me question, "sha biler nk kahwin?" b, heard that? haha. slap her.(: no la joking.(:

QIN NYE BIG SECRET DA LET OUT! khekhe. but we shall be nice and keep her secret okay. girlfrend jek tau kn!(: aku sayang krg. amy still the same(: sotong. but dam cute. how time flies kn. 7 years and still strong you gerls never fail to cheer me up. yana plak, in the end i get to know the true stiry behind everything. remember what ive mention to you kay darls(: some gerlt o gerl talk(: murr plak still the same with shali. getting smaller la you syg.(: hehe. and talking about kahwin, you all keep on saying that ill get married ferst. we see how ok ferst? few years down the road we see who will be the one. haha. (: you gerls are part of my life i swear. (: i love you gerls alot. and i mean alot. (;

Monday, 9th March 09

today, ntg much happen but i actually have tons of fun i swear. went over to sch to had our HOTS. okay la. i dun wanna elaborate. dearest fetch me. went over to cold storage to buy minestrone soup for akak. den went home. cook for akak den fieqa came back from doc(: played with her(: den play games! scrabble and monopoly!!! with akak and cik farah! i swear i had the greatest time on earth. (: thanks love.(: tolarated my manjerness and gillerness! (:

ive been having a great time on earth. with my girlfriends, family, shatec cliques & boyfie especially. nothing else ever made my dae i swear. girlfriends, the never stop to make me laugh and let me feel great and happy.soorry syg, you gerls fotoes yg we take yesterdae, i just send it out tadik. soo take a look at your email! (: family, will always be the one taking care of me all the time. i know when im down of in trouble, they'll always be here.

shatec cliques, stance, tracy,eileen, botak, isaac, garrett, russ, ron, dinesh, ah quan, jack & lest. they will always meke my dae when im in sch. always make me laugh. seeing them fight also can make me laugh. really. now hots are here, i missing them. i miss the time in school. not paying attention in class and chit chat. how time flies ); it will be a year from now den i will be able to see you guys. since i will be working with the b class people, but i guess the memories are too much for me to keep in my brain, ill let it be in my heart forever will be here. and like what tracy said in her blog, we've seen and found true friends that will always be there for us(: thnaks alot. whatever they wanna sae bout shatec students, we're still the best.(: not forgetting the rest of my classmates, youre loved. really.(: ive open up my hearrt to keep my memories of my deary frens at shatec. for now, theyre keept inside my heart and will always be(:

boyfriend, youre simply the best though you tried to cheat on me and my fam on monopoly! haha. (: like what ive mention to you just now, i hope we wont let ns and my working time be an excuse for us to be apart later on. you know what i mean. we will try to hold on to the relationship ryte. cos ive never found anyone else better then you and somehow i hate changes. i like you and i dun wanna change. yourre someone i wanna be with. i dun wish to be apart with you. i dun think my fam will wan to be apart from you also. my fam loves you alot. seriously alot. only i know how much they love you.(: main thing, i love you.(:

i guess in life you wont know who youll meet and who will make u extremely happy and be part of you. though youll et people to hate you at times, but the frends that make you happy and be part of you and those who will always be by your side, is the one that appriciate you the most. and i guess my life has just started without my parents, i believe god will give me people who will appriciate me, love me and someone who is just true to me. friends(: cos now, ive found someone whom i guess fits the characteristics like my mom,khai(: thank you. lovely frends i have just completes my life(:

TRACY, YOU DUN DIE OKAY! (:

2009-03-06T20:18:00.003+08:00

just to add photoes, i just decided to just upload a picture of me like one or two years ago. some how i just miss this hair and apprently i cant back to this hair for some reason. but nevertheless, will try, but wont sacrifice my hair length(:

and my previous2 post, sorie for the spelling mistakes. i always do that. haha(: tracy and boyfie spot my mistakes.*kuang kuang kuang

i will be accompanying grandma tml since my aunty and uncle and maid and niece will be going over to kl as my aunt have to attend wedding over at kl. her relative. so left me and grandma. will be a good grandaughter and accompany her. as usual my khai will be comming over and tmn me(: thanks sweetheart. still wondering wad to do. maybe we do cooking togada, watch movie, slack paly ,monopoly, scrabble, uno, taboo? hhaha. still wondering wad to cook(: dearestkhai, please help haha!(: and one thing for sure, learn my ftt(: asked boyfie questions! (:

and to my dearest girlsfrend, MURR, AMY, YANA & QIN, tomolo outing will be pospone to sun, 1pm over at dhobby ghaut. chill out session. lepak, cam whore and more or catching up! okay. im sure we will have fun. was thinking of eating at mad jack? think about it okay gerls(: cant waet to meet you all! and qin, please bring along you cam so we can camwhore till theres no tml!(: rinddu giler la with you all! (:

alright , todae wad alrite.had lesson. all was a short one. finally lessons are all over. left with Hops iss dat how you spell it? haha(: mixed with c and b class people. yeah like dat lorh. the rest of them went to play soccer while me and stance head over to the mrt station. had a heart to heart convo with stance. stance, be strong k? nisha know youll be strong! ill be here if you need a listening ear! then i drop off at wlds. den off to tamp to mit gendut. then i went over to ubi for my driving lesson. as usual, i wanna learn more and more. excited. ftt next week, praying hard! (:

sweets,thanks for fetching me just now.if you were not there, i would have fainted i guess. thankyou(: youre loved(:

2009-03-05T14:19:00.003+08:00

currently im over at changi geeral hospital waeting for grandma's turn to visit the doc. intially the doc from clinic H said it was okay alrdy. then we had to pay a visit to another doctor over at clinic M. so yah. gotta waet. from 1230 till now 228pm. siann. Aunty is sleeping soundly, gradma ca nt waet to go home and wish she could skip this appoinment,bf is currently beside me looking at every single word ive type.

i din go to sch todae. cos goota acc grandma for her chck up. next week she still has one check up but i can not acc cos ive got ftt. and bf working. auty can do me a favour ad send her instead without me ard? so sorry. i wanna pass my ftt. pls let me pass(: i promise to study. wad can i doo? dam bored! nvm, will continue to read my ftt book so make sure i can pass.

*i dun live my life to pleasee people. i live my life for my khairul anwar, family, girlfrends, friends and definately for him above.

2009-03-03T21:28:00.005+08:00

my lappy today has been such a sweetheart. actually i din expect i could blog today and yah. blog as usual larrhk hor (: intially i thought that my lovely lappy would die on me but apprently it does not. love you lappy!(: you die on me also i still love you cos youre one precious thing i ever had (:

sch was alrite today. most of cliques wore formal today cos we got one to one interview with mr tay and dats considered like our project marks i guess. we finish at 1130 and me dam unlucky kena the 3rd shift so waeted till 230pm. but guess wad im the last one and my interview was like at 4plus? can u imagine how long i had to waet(: the rest of my mates who dont have interview waeted for me. so sweet. cos dinesh was 2nd last. haha. then we went back home la. in the mean time during the freaking long break, we ate pizza hut. as usual delivery cos the weather was freaking bad i swear! sucks big time. den we played ermmm..wads that thing call wen u draw and your team mates have to guess wad issit? haha. cnt remember. den after we got bored of it we played sharrrade? cnt spell! i suck! haha. den rest go toilet break eat ice cream and stuff den head to play true or dare! haha. eileen dam sicko. haha. but was fun! (: so funny!

den we head off home after me. den tracy was like "nisha, wad if one year down the road you see me being dam feminine."ill be shock and see if you got fever!" haha. den she irritate fifi by being dam feminine! dam funny. all the way till train. tracy ditch the plan to follow fi go town. but followed me instead(: haha! go home lorh! buy stuff over at compass point. dam funny. bought famous amos for my angle cos tml got giving angle present dae.haha. den go buy stuff for tracy angle. haha. den go buy food. den buy snacks. me and tracy is like the queen of snacks! (: hey tracy! ive mention you name quite a few times horh! (: P/S: bf, i din buy anything not important okay! dun believe me ask tracy.she even ask me not to buy some stuff i tempted to buy okay! haha! ask her lorh! (: well, thats about it la ryte? den for the ferst time we head home by bus. since i was only one stop away from her(: khekhe.

now im at home. missing my matrep anwar alot can. haha. i like to call him matrep now. dam funny. you boncet! (: that means got tummy. so cute.(: i miss you smell(: see you tml okay? i badly wanna hug hug you!(: okay.will be going to the hotel to sign contract. yah. ive been accepted to SWISSOTEL MERCHANT COURT. i did not mention the hotel name. satisfied(: going down with huda and ivy and aikho and jaslinei think. i only know huda will be with me.(: so excited(: did i meantion i was late todae. suppose to wake up at 545am but i woke up at 640am! rush like mad and took cab lorh. pity tracy must waet for me. sorry darl! tml rmmbr to mit at 930 okay go buy breakfast and eat in class! i wan kf breakfast! (: yayness!

and to my dearet gfs! about this coming saturday outings, pls mag me to confirm. so far qin and amy cam make it. yana pls conferm by tml since you say most prob can make it. murr, we wount go home dat late ok. i swear. we try ok? so we can hang out. just thish once for thish month? pls try! and get bck to me(:

and yah. dearest got himself a job thanks to me. but only from 11th march to 17th march! thank you jackson! one dae 50 got commission some more! baby can blanja me alrdy! kn??? haha! thank you!(: dun pang sei okay. later i kena fuck by jack. but i know you wont!(: you are trusted by me and i trust you!(: march i can get something already from you ryte. haha. joking only! (: chacha sayang anwar.(:

-_- just not happy with some things regarding me. bf i really feel horrible sometimes really. i just hate it alot i swear. it pissed me off and make me dam irritated. i swear. i hate it.

2009-03-01T18:50:00.004+08:00

my vaio lappy has been killing me..ive been wanting to blog since friday but couldnt make it cos its farking laggy and freaking stuck all the time.im posting thish time also cos im using bf lappy cos he's at home with me. let me borrow his lappy cos i just finish doing research for my project. pity me. siiann.today i went over to zoo! followed akak & cik wan and th rest of my fam.(: had an awesome time. so after visiting the zoo, we went over to the fish spa and i tried the fish spa for once! i though i could be brave la. perasan la kn the ferst time. den the wen i went in freaking ticklish! i swear! tkle angkat! dam ticklish! cnnot thn! haha.

i dint even see the fish cos i think its disgusting la...but after the 10 mins i feel alot better. seriously. i wanna go again can? bt still scared! haha..and yessterdae was azmi's bdae had celebration and i did help out though with hubby. we're dam tired though. and bla blabla. im too lazy to post actualli.hahah.(:

and to my gfs! dis cumming saturday,7th maarch, let go and have fun togada and hang out cos itss been ages since we do so. make urself free and think of an activity to do ok.we must kelu tauu. qin must be back b4 9 since she got things to do.so ingt ok. yana werking. after 3 den free but idk if she's following. so ingt ok.(: i must meet you alll! rindu tauuu!!(: here are some activities being suggested. do tell me okay!

movie!(role model,pink panther 2,let the right one in)
swimming
chill session over at the starbucks,coffee beans or gloria jeans.
shopping session(:
board game session
fish spa?(:
anything larh!(:

okay? do tell me your opinion tau! hehe. im done here! nk spend time with bf.tata! take care and enjoy your week!(:

2009-02-26T22:44:00.004+08:00

not a single word i think in the dictionary can ever express how happy i am today(: im just preety contented that i got myself a secured job for attachment. it doesnt seem like an attachment to me it seemed more like a real work real experience for me. will be looking forward for the attachment though some good things in life wonte as beautiful as it seems. im so glad to get that call from the hotel offering me the job and yah. im contented.(: will be going down on wednesdae to talk about the details.(: hopefully it will be a great one.(: 20 mins from my house to the workplace. so dam convinient. will talk about the sufferings later at work la hor. all work are like dat i guess. but if the people make it a better place to work,i dun see anything wrong with it. hoping to make more new frens(:

okay lets just forget about the good news ive got. went over to CGH and sent grandma to her check up. meet hisyam and gf over at longs car cos he sending us to hsp ferst den sending him to check up again. hubby was alrdy at the hosp waeting.sorry hunn to kip you waeting. since we reach early took the number and head down to have breakfast.(: nasik lemak.(: awesome! went up back and sat for a while and our number was called. quite fast. grandma was in pain as usual. doc took some of her tissues over at her nose. looks dam painful. i was so fraking out i swear. end up she have to be refered to ttsh soon. will be waeting for the nurse to call me. went over to B1 and grandma had to do x-ray. dam funny i tell u. we laugh out loud. long dam funny.(: den after all has been settled, me and dear went off to pasir ris to watch marley and me(;

dam touchng tell you the movie.must go and watch okay? ive yet to watch my 3d bloody valentine. soon. cant make it thish sat cos will be busy helping out for azmi's bdae. and he turn 5 years old todae. happpy birhtday mohd azmi bin mohd azman.(: will be seeing you dis saturday okay birthday boy(: thanks so much dearest for always being the one who have to order the curry puffs and bringing it over. you do the most job actually. thank you so much syg. i appriciate it ok. dont sae i dont appriciate okay(: come early to help out ok. i will be at cik leha house waeting for you.i mean under the bbq place there(:

today's drivng lesson was alright. as per normal i was driving round and round and round.. since i have not pass my ftt yet, so ill make it once a week onli for prac. that cost money also okay. 28 bucks per week dats alot. boley bankrupt aku! (: but nvm. practise makes perfect. alrite my comp is giving me hell again. will post soon! enjoy the daes of you life people!(:

**muhammad khairul anwar, thanks.(; no one can ever replace you.

2009-02-25T21:09:00.004+08:00

i swear im freaking out cos i got rejected one hotel. dam it. mad cos i got an interview but i din nail it. i wish i could.serious. all of the dhm people are like desprate for an internship for that one year cos its the recession year now and we cant seemed to get any. apparently garrett din get the rejection letter and i think he got it. and im freaking sad. but nvm. good luck garett if you nail the job. while me and the rest still searching high low for the job though. dam scared. i dun know what to do already. asking cik eein to help me ask for the amara hotel if they need vacancy for hotel trainee. the feeling kena reject before going interview is way different from you going down make effort to do so, den kena reject. wah heart dam pain. especially the hotel is the one that you placed hopes on. im freaking not in a mood seriously. but why shud i be dam sad ryte? im already lucky enough that i got a hotel reply and go for interview rather than some of my classmates have got a single interview ryte. im sorry.its not that i looking down on them.but nevertheless i shud be greatful seriously. i just hope that some hotel will at least call me for interview. i really need one. seriously. forget it i shall not let my day be a bad one just because of the rejection.

babylove said something that actually made my dae and ill never forget that.(: thanks to him i can cheer up a little and not think about it.

me:b,i rindu you uh.
him:yeah. i rindu you jgk b. i just saw a rainbow at my house. and it reminds me of you.
me:haha.why?
him:hehe.idk ehk yg. it just did uh. its very nice. makes me smile. i also got take picture.
dam cute sia my babylove. haish. can i hug u? like seriously. youll make me feel better and not think of my sadness. babylove we had each other promises. and im sure we will be able to go thru this year together and wont go far apart. i love you.

ive got nothing else to say. preety lazy.im very lazzy and kind of not in a mood. gotta send grandma to check up tml and i got driving lesson tml also. i wanna watch movie but idk if can make it. i wanna eat durian pancake. idk la. till den!

2009-02-24T22:06:00.004+08:00

finally! omg! my lappy has been giving shit loads of headache this days! since friday ive been wanting to blog. and i only get to blog like now? which is like tuesday? like wtf kn? after i reboot den my lappy is back to normal. i swear i was cursing and swearing the comp for so long! irritatingg tauuu! i miss my lappy! now i have to download everything back to normal. but nevertheless im happy! freaking happy i swear!(:

friday 20th feb 09

what did i do? (: oh yah i went over to sentosa spa and resort to had my interview. so far i did okay i guess. i was satisfied wit it. so after that i went over to met babylove and ad to town. i din want to go home since it was preety early.i thot i would go to sch after that but then theyendd class early so no point then i went to meet babylove and ad la. acompany them to find job. babylove and i had conflict but after a while, we're back to normal. bought tops from dorothy perkins again. lucky babylove was not angry. i bought 3 tops alrdy the other dae.now buy again. (: happpy! head over to cik leha's place after that. but i actually did buy for them donut as know that the kids would love them! i know best adek2 sedare ku as i watch them grow(: menumpang kasih sayang from all my aunts and uncle. so babaylove followed and i totally had fun with them.

so upon reaching, dee, dan's gf, my lil cousin, was there. she is sweet as usual. seen her a few time and talked sumtimes. so we had a lil chit chat and she really sweet la. (: may u last okay. (: asked her to eat the donut but she dun wan. action la kamu! (: but dam cute. so after a while si adeq sedare ku tu ask me to y ciggies for him. den me, babylove,dan and dee went down to buy. dam funny! talked about that someone. aha!(: just seecret between me and dem. and for once, dee tought i look like 22! so old. im not dat old okay swwet. my 21st bdae have yet to cum wad more 22nd! wow! haha. den watch suci blablabla and then, home sweet home. babaylove was such a sweetheart he send me and grandma home. scared bith of us kena kidnap! (:

saturday 21st feb 2009

watched he's not that into you. hilarious i swear you guys shud catch it seriously. i kip on saying ehk some things are true to dearest. he keep on denying! haha. we actually had a tiff again before the movie start but yeah, sum issues were settled. i over it till n0owe, i swear we will be fighting over it till now. dam happy(: so eat mad jack after the movie cos my tummy was noisy inside the cinema! (: crazy fun and laughter i had with dearest!(: den head down to fresh imp to buy my jacket,after much persuation to him! intially he didnt allow me to buy sia! kuku. but after a while i still get my lovely jacket which cost me 73 bucks. and bought him a shirt. flesh imp. freaking nice. i like! and a cap1 preparing for ns! kuang2! head over to my crib after that and had fun as usual! with cik wati and family around! played monopoly!(:

sunday 22nd feb 09

slacked till i dun know wad time!at home i mean. den long called. wanted to pick us up and go over to changi. dint plan to meet babylove actually cos been meeting him everydae but den grandma asked babylove along you see so i ask him to tag along.(: came over to my house, as usual i haven get ready yet. so wated for long. went there and had funn! seriously.(: when babylove is around, i never fail to have fun.(: im kinda lazy to elaborate, so yeah(:

my life has been great the people aorund me. but im misssing one thing my gfs. its been wae too long since i last saw them rindu teramat sangat): pls darlings..mitt up soon before i go attachment! grrr... monday had sch. as per normal. meet hubby. eat and bougt stuffs and home sweet home. i just had my second interview at swiss hotel merchant court. i dun know if i could nail the job but i tried. i realli tried. went back to school and had lessons as usual.(; din mit babyove. miss him though(: tomolo i dun think will be mitting since i end school late. but will hav a splendid time on thurs.(: with you darla!(: sending grandma to hospital for check up, and will be having my driving lesson at 6pm! yeah baby! in between the timing, i think we will be watchigbloody valentine!(: i wanna watch! cos its 3D. haha(:

i think ill end my post for now. will upload pictures perharps tml okay. kinda tired! enjoy your week people! take care!

* muhammad khairul anwar and nurul nisha turned 28th months yesterdae.(: still strong(:

2009-02-19T20:27:00.005+08:00

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i love the lyrics. too bad im kinda lazy to traslate. bukan i nk ungkit my dear baby. but i just love the song and you shud know what it means. the love that we built can never be replace by anything in this world be it money gift or another replacement of you or me. read carefully the words that has different colours it has different meaning to it and im sure youre clever dearest to know what it means. cos you mean the world to me after my fam. i love you with the patience i have and willing to forget evrything and you shud know how much u mean to me. willing to waet and be patience cos the love is justt errrmm,cant be exxplained.as far as i know,ill endure and love you more each day.dun ever change cos the real you is whom i fall in love with and not others.nothing else matter.it YOU that matters to me.

i was so freaking scared the ferst time i had my driving lesson today way early in the morning! muhammad khairul anwar being such a sweetheart waeted for me for 1 solid hour cos idk which cofeeshop to waet for my instructor. so yeah. i thought i would be driving at the carpark over at kallang or smnthg but NO! after errmm, not even 5 mins my instructor bring me one side road, he ask me drive and try out. easy la just brake and accelerate and signal u turn and stuff. i was excited tauuuu!!!!! haha. bf was hearing the whole story of mine and he was quite suprised that i drive over at the roads alrdy. im dam excited. like seriously. im so looking forward to the next lesson when he said i was getting the hang of the break and accelerate! so dam cool! aku suker aku suker! i really hope i can get my licience by this year(; even grandma was excited and she ask me how was it. haha. kaypo jek nk tauuuu! (: overall im super excited about driving! the only thing im scared about is my ftt. dam diff and for sure im gonna fail. gosh! got stuffs about manual car.im taking auto you see. but nvm. im sure i can do it though it mite take a few time(: overall, like i say, im freaking excited. excited.

so since it was dam early me and si babylove went over to cp to get breakfast and went over to my crib to eat our breakfast. brought stuffd for grandma and bibik also. watch tv, played with fieqa entertain grandma and etc. and we slept not knowing! i swear. haha. then grandma went out to get stuffs. suddenly she came back ask khai to get smthng for her.haha! dam funny i swear! then after she came back she did sum stuff and ask me if i wan go out buy radio with her and other stuff. so i said, ok we go giant. baby followed(: so yeah had fun. eat and stuff.(: lazy to elaborate. haha. overall i had fun with my fam and babylove. i mention the word overall umpteen times todae! kuang3!

okay another interview tml. SENTOSA SPA AND RESORT. she said her interview was like for 5 mins. onli? omg. she mention smnthg like errrm....dier rasist per tknk melayu. dam. now i freaking out. seriously. haish. TAKOT! idk if i can secure a hotel and idk if merchant court can let me have a second interview. i swear im freaking out. dam! wadever la. i wanna see K-nite!(: and QIM, did i see you dancing just now at k-nite? haha!(: alrite. wosh me luck for tml! see yah people!(:

2009-02-18T20:22:00.003+08:00

im freaking shagg. i seriously dun know why. maybe because im was quite nervous for the interview just now. wore heels and formal wear to sch was such a hassle. after a long time not wearing since the sch abort the uniform thingey i wear flats all the wae. of course la hor!(: overall it was alright. if i have second interview, which will be scheduled next week, the person will call me back. latest next week though. i dont know if im hoping for it. but at this kind of timing, i shud be glad. im hoping for beaufort hotel actually. i dun know why. haish. kalau ader rezeki, aderla tu kn. like wad nenek say. insyallah. yah allah, please gimme a place wher you think i deserve to get.(:

haha.errmm.khairul anwar ku tersyg went over for medical check up and kena Pes A. its good that hes fit but is he gonna have a tough training. gosh. delima aku. gosh. haish. macam maner ehk? hahah!okay im falling sick again. my throat irritating! sial betol! haish. tml early in the morning got driving lesson. aiyoh. haish. lazy! wanna watch hes not into you either. but idk what time. i wanna go home and sleep ferst but idk if i can sleep again after i wake up. so still pending. but den muhammad khairul anwar ku syg, can show me the place? i realli dun know where! thank you(:

i dun know wad to say alrdy la. have a good day people!(:
aku sayang kamu muhammad khairul anwar bin kamaruddin!

i love my boyfriend and you look effing cute today with specs!

naughty you never wear specs anymore. ehk, i buy for you specs la ok?(:

hahah* random. and nuts! BYEEE!

2009-02-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

currently nervous about tml. just received a call from Swiss Hotel Merchant Court saying that i have to go down for interview. i was hoipng to get the same day as garrett and eileen so i could go with them but in the end they call me up asking me to go over tml at 4pm. im dam scared can. ferst intervew followed by the Sentosa Spa and Resort on friday. dam scary. i just wish either one can reply me and accept me ASAP before everything goes wrong. hyatt,carlton and crown plaza rejected me and the rest have not replied. pray hard* ): dam freaky.

my boo is going over for medical check up tml at 8pm with ad and rafi. (: somebody busy looking for jobs and going Ns soon ehks. ill stay by you. always(; dun be scared about the real experience Ns man has. gerlfren leaving them. i wont. at least i know i love you alot. we went thru alot and its not easy being togethher till now 2 years plus baby. you shud know wad we;ve gone thru. aint easy. i will be dam busy working by then! (: so samer la ehk! (: good luck in finding for job hunn. i hope youll get the job over at the place you have ask with ad just nw(: get a job soon and then blanja me at pass me 50bucks every month okay! haha(:

okay i cnt think much now. busy looking at my resume, hotels website and thinking about tml and friday. till then people. and yah, tracy taught me the diff between stars and satalite! (: haha! thanks tracy for the company!(: okay!tracy just msg and said i took tons of her photoes over at her fone! shit! haha(: alrite shall not drag den enjoy you days ahead people(:

2009-02-16T20:37:00.004+08:00

im back here posting yaw. and i relised ive got ntg much to talk about unless about me gg out just now with muhammad khairul anwar bin kamaruddin. i finish early due cos i din have any business communication with mr terrence tay and i had principle of management. finished at 12. went off first. me and that lovely dol mat of mine went over to ubi driving center to apply my pdl lucky theres this butch who gave us her number instead of waiting for our number. i swear we gootta waet dam long if it was the number we had(: so i had my pdl done. intially wanted to waet for my lovely dol mat to reapply his pdl again for his TP in march. but i wanted to start early and me being very stubborn, we went there earlier. and we've got new info. (: we can renew the pdl at singapore post instead of waiting for the long queu over at the ubi drinving center. i swear its dam long. cos they was so much people!

and there were so much funny people around. people who thought the counter 2 and 1 for applying the pdl in actual fact it was supposed to be for counter 3 only.i swear i was freaking crazy that time that my lovely dol mat din not to entertain my stoopid crazy attitude! haha. but overall it was dam funny and we din stop laughing.(: we head down to TM to had SG= Seoul Gaarden(: saw mam,fai and shikin there! rindu shey zaman2 kerje dulu. as usual we always had fun in SG(: really. den i went to buy my socks. just bought 4 socks the other day for my normal shoes and and bought 2 more for my another shoe(: den head down to the choc shop and bought my mrashmellow coated with choc. den off to mango. wanted to buy sumthng den dat dol mat tak kasik! jahat! hha. next was the pasar mlm. bought fertilisers for grandma. as in fertilisers for the plants. the plants that grandma take care.haha.

the kuku aunty was busy talking on the fone and cant be bothered to lyn me and this mak cik. so evil! den head to cheers and buy bread. saw lovely dol mat "adek ngkat" konon! den i went binget with him. at ferst i was really binget la. den i was playing only. haha! serve him ryte! dun like shye. salam and ol and you dun even know her that well? grrr! *bluek!* den head over to buy otak2 at library. saw bread sugar or sugar bread, i decided to buy for grandma since she likes it so much.and i bought goreng pisang from the shop in tamp! dam nice. me and my lovely dol mat got addicted to that goreng pisang! though its cold after a while, its still delicious! serious! (: then it was home sweet home baby! (;

starting my driving lesson soon!(; thurs 8am baby! shit! so early! kuang3! (: but nvm. start eaarly hoping to pass my ftt soon yah. life is gonna be more meaningful and changellinging thiss year. but ill pull thru. and yah, i just remembered, that lovely dol mat of mine is dam funny!

unknown stranger: hey bro wads up?
lovely dolt mat: hey!
me: b, tu saper?
lovely dol mat: ntah la b i pon tk tau i ckp je hey.
me: you dol la b, ckp hey tapi taktau saper! kuang3!

see that? hes such a kuku but cute! kuang3!

me: b, cptla i nk alek nenek srg la pt umah
lovely dol mat: bibik kn ader ngn fieqa
me: tkde la dol cik farah ambek half day and bawak fieqa p umah mak cik farah.
lovely dol mat: ouhkay. den cik wan pon samer ?
me: tak la cik wa pergi maen golf. cik wan kerje la dol!
laughing out loud*both! haha.

haha.okay lame?wadever la. till then people! enjoy the rest of the week! (: * dun play with peoples feeling if you dun know how to treasure them and pls dun break their heart cos youll never know when other people will break your heart and it'll be more hurting then you doing it to others. if you wan people to treat you nice, treat people the same wae u wish people want to treat you.

2009-02-15T21:07:00.007+08:00

hello hello hello! i think im just one day late to wish my friends out there happy valentines day! (: well.though dearest is with me that dae, we din celebrate. well, i din get for him anything and so do i. cos for me, when he's with me, its fine. cos its a valentines dae everydae. i dun see a reason to celebrate. and its not necessary plus its against the religion. (: though i don follow most of it, but at least some i do(: im not any perfect person anyway(: no once is perfect we all have that one little part where you yourself know you aint perfect. and so am i and my loved ones(:

*okay,did i mention that jojo is dam hot? i love her! (: she so hot. i love her hair her body and all.(: sweet!

so my saturday was weell spent. me and dearest decided to go over to mad jack over at dhobby ghaut but we ditch the plan cos ,well it was quite confusing actually. i want to go toy r us to get the monopoly around the world the new edition, go over to haji lane and go over to mad jack ryte. so since i ditch the plan to go mad jack, we went over to secret recipie instead to eaat. i wanted to eat siam kitchen.but den i ditch it instead. haha. so eat at secret recipi. den went over to kiddy palace to see the monopoly den i did see the monopoly den i tot was expensive, so head down to ermmm forum instead to toy r us and but. den i went over to zamzam cos grandma wanted soup. but they din have it so bought murtabak instead. since i was alrdy(okay dam fast!) so we cabbed back home(:

so dear din had any plans,so we chilled over at my play and play monopoly! i won! cool. din use money but credit card instead! (: i swear we were dam jakon! muahahah! we were like fighting over the electronic and counting the money. hilarious! den dearest head home cos it was late alrdy by then(: i swear i had a great time with you dearest!(: dear was bored so he head down to my crib only in the evening.(: shud have ask you to come here earlier. me and bibik together with grandma and fieqa went over to cp to had our lunch. went over to sakura. as ususal.(; my fav plce. shud have went to the buangkok instead. i love that sakura.(: ryte dearest?

im happy with my life now. just contented with wad i have seriously(: nothing can make me more happy by seeing my dearest almost everydae,havingmy family with me all day long knowing that they will always be there for me, having my dearest classmates around and making me happy all the time, having my gfs in mind and heart, knowing they always know that im here for them and will always be and just, you know, having people that i love all around me. i love my life just the way it is now(: i wish i could make more frens in the future months of 2009 and pull thru with hubby to have time with each other wen he start NS soon and me of course working. im sure we will pull thru. and to my gfs, please meet soon. im missing you people like no other. seriosuly. i wan us to sit, go crazy like always and have our own time of our own! can we please do that? im seriously missing you all like nuts. wen exams are over,do gimme a kol.(:

i hope my family will be as loving as always and seldom fights. there are bound to be ups and downs, but im sure it will be okay. "air dicincang tk kn putus"(: errmm..:even if you cut the water,it wont split up" hahah! direct translaction! kuang3! (; and to my sg gfs, i really miss you all! (; starting my driving lessons soon! will be applying my pdl alrdy. haha. its been few weeks yet i haven apply. so yah. so dearest will be accompanying me tml. so yah, will see you soon! okay, i guess im done. i have pictures waeting. and enjoy! ermm.. i dun think i can make it by posting pictures. my comp has been such a bitch these daes, well, nvm, later alrite. hopefully whhen my comp is fully recovered. khekhe! (: till den! ENJOY YOUR NEW WEEK PEOPLE! (:

2009-02-13T20:47:00.006+08:00

though i did minimal studying,i think i can still pull thru for food production management.*winks*i hope? alrite. this week of school has ended, i guess we still have like 3 or 2 weeks left? seriously it freaking me out cos its too fast. and next week ill be hving interview. still idk if i can get a job. ive send out a few application again today. praying hard that ill at least get one more interview? gossh. please.

weell,we were watching this show,errr i cant remember but sure it was sick that i was having a headache thought the show was nice. even russ was having a split headache during the show. but like wad ive mention,it was fun seriously. well,before lunch me and garrett and isaac was talking to ms raihan. stance and jackson and russ was there too. we were talking non-stop till we almost forget to go for lunch. after which we head down to have lunch. ms raihan bought us ton of crackers for CTIS. hehe. and four bottles of coke and sprite. 2 each. like watchng real movie at cinema like dat. way before that wen we were talking with ms raihan we know she has bought us stuff. so me and the cliques bought for her rocher and made her a card. as usual russ and ah neh was the artis. hehe.i swear it turn out great. too bad i din manage to take a photo of it.

sumhow i think todae i think i did a great thing by bringing my camera. i took,oh no! jackson took pictures of our mates. for sure ill keep it and wint delete it by all means! i love dhm407A (: fish made cupcakes for us. dam cute lorh she! and the cakes were awesome fish! seriously. fish=wenyu okay! (: hehe. gonna miss them for sure!(:

oh gosh so many people applying for hotel spa and resort. even huda has interview there. gosh now i only have one interview. dam scared can. ishk. if i cnt get shit man. im superrrr dead! worried! worried! ): gosh. haish. okay ive got no mood and worried sick!

and yah,dearest, i had fun with you. see you tml okay handsome.(: loves!

2009-02-12T15:53:00.005+08:00

its been quite some time since i last blog. its not that im busy though well actually i am? haha. i dunt know. my comp has been lagging and im quite frusfrated by it. so now it seems to be okay so i shall blog and not leave my blog dead. (:

apprently ive been spending alot lately that my bank acc seems to be already to it mininum. gosh. the other dae,300 bucks just gona in a split second. bought my issey miyake prefume few weeks back. yesterdae went to town end up spending 123 bucks. bought tops for sch. and online, alrdy 2 tops that ive bought. 26 each? freaking shit im crazy and dearest is seriously mad at me.wakaka. he only bought his jeans and shirt from topman. see the diff? gosh. shopaholic freak. thats it for this month. bought formal shirt and heel the other for interview. haha~ i haven secure an interview that time.yet i bougth. just in case.

and noww, SENTOSA HOTEL SPA AND RESORT-BEOUFORT HOTEL has call and ask me to come down for interview. friday 11am(: garrett and issacc is on monday while scofield and zhuzhu thursday. i really hope i can get a place. cos so far i have only one hotel that calls me up. freaking scary.

sent grandma over for checck up now. after leaving the place,the nurse called back and ask to go again to take blood test cos there was mistakes done.freaking pissed. luck cik eein sent us back. and dearest and me followed grandma up.i really hope the test that gonna cum up in few weeks time will not be of a problem. *cross fingers* insyallah.

dinesh and russ! dun forget to cum out with designs for the class polo t!(: will be looking forward to wear it once its done thoug!seriously.class chalet and stuff. ill be missing dhm407A wen we're all off to attachment for 12 months.den graduate.(: alrite will blog again maybe later? for now,i need to do smthng. will be mitting tracy to photocopy my manual!(: post later ya al!!

ans before i end this post,i found this at fydaa's blog(: do take a look.(:

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

-FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

-APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

-MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

-JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

-JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. {Easily hurt but takes long to recover.} --> this is SO true.

-AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

-SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

-OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

-NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

-DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor

2009-02-05T21:17:00.005+08:00

finally,after i failed for the ferst time,i manage to pull thru the second time.yes,ive passed my btt for the second. im so happy though. thanks to that seat num ryte my dear loverboy?(: *you know i know* well,im preety much happy.actually very much happy.thanks to my cliques,cik wati and loverboy for wishing me good luck..i was smilling all the wae and i managed to hop a little when i leave the room(: loverboy was waiting for me outside so i huge him wen i wen out.(: hug his leg i mean? haha. was too happy. now i need to study real hard dis ime for my ftt.which i doubt i can pass thru it the ferst time. so im gonna head quan's and garret advise. they once tell me to apply pdl and try riding ferst and at the same time do my ftt(: so loverboy,ask your cousin okay?help me(: sayang kaaamu!

i dun think ive mention this before but my dearest cousin is over at brunei now.i think next week then he will come back.i pray for your save journey back home okay.though you think she doesnt care bout you,your family still here for you okay?(: we love you kin.(:

i cant seem to stop smiling today.something is wrong with me.*kuangkuangkuang* well,ive send out my resume alrdy.i hope they will call me up.only started sending 6 hotels? still got 4 more tml. i just wanna make sure its 10 that im sending out ferst.gosh.the economy now is preety bad.0407 batch is really worried that we wont get a place in hotels.we're praying hard.seriously.we heard that hotels are frezeeing their staff.gosh.seriosly freaking worried.but neverhteless,we're praying though(:

im totally crazy,in love, freaking out and totally totally crazy over these two electronics.can sumone buy that for me? or i will get it myself and save up using attachment money.*kuangkuangkuang!!* sesungguhnye aku in love!haha(: if i din get the email from apple showing me how classy the ipod touch was,i woulde not go over the moon for that ipod touch. and if loverboy din show me how nice and classic the X1 was,i wouldn have known. dam. all black electronics are dam cool...dam irritating...i'll always have this habit of liking another product quite fast. but not for love(:

gosh,dont you people think its dam cool! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -__-

enjoy you friday people!(: and look forward for the weekend!(:

♥♥♥₳ŊŵăŘŕ melts me due to the above picture,but most of the time,he melts my heart(:

2009-02-03T23:20:00.009+08:00

i am supposed to be doing my last minute touch for my resume as mr tay has told me to push up all the spaces that are quite empty,enlarge my photo for that resume,adjust the profile part,add and email to be put nicely again and my name must put nicely together with the add.apprently i have not done wad i am supposed to do. at the same time,i shud have been doing all my btt questions for my btt this comming thurs.and yes,u must have guessed that i have not do so.apprently ya.so will be sleeping rather late todae since ml sch start at 3pm. mind you 3pm. go all the wae to batok to have 3pm lesson till 615pm.but i doubt so we will be staying till 615pm.gosh i think i shud start the ball rolling.well,at least after this okay(:

okay so what ive been doing for the past few hours since i wasnt really doing wad i am supposed to do? i was busy editting my picture for the blog,ending post with my picutures and the handsem guy der(: busy watching make-up tutorials from you-tube cos my palette cam alrdy long time ago but rarely being used.errmm..yeah? dats about it.oh yah.and i did went over to facebook cos mdm sutinah tagged my pictures.and guess wad i found? the supper duper old picture of me and my besties(my dearest gfss!) during our secondary sch days and the days we're really active in dancing.i swear it was very old.it was i think around 2005? oh crap. zaman kental sia.haaha. but i do admit i have tons and zillion memories with my gfss and mdm sutinah during dance. alot of the pictures brings memories to my heart.

gfs,remember the times we had to wear tarian nyer baju pertame? i still have it till now,cos for me,its an experience no one can ever tarnish it from me.cos u gerls and cikgu has always been there for me.especailly wen my mum pass away.being in pertame makes me feel that i have a family in sch.i rather be in sch den at home sumtimes cos u gerls were der for me,the one who understand me very well(: despites all the fite we had,it brought us to what we ar today.(: thanks for being part of my life.(: yah as mentioned above,i saw pictures of the orientation we did for the juniors that was trying out for malay dance dat time.we were the seniors.i think it was during sec 3.so funn..the farewell we did for our senoirs.remember? go take a look. im sure it;ll bring memories and you gerls will laughing to yourself.haha! missing those times.

its rather amazing that all of us has turn to a young lady.going on with our lifes after sec sch and still close to heart(: we've seen the kental moments we had,and now,seing you gerls turn to sumone more beautiful,makes me realise that we have went thru quite a fair bit togada.and i din regret a single moment of that.including with yana. 2003 till now,it has been 7 years alrdy.we will be going on strong.as usual.(:mwassh! rindu krg!(:

alrite.photobucket is giving me headaches! so dam freakin*fast. im almost ending my post and yet my two pictures are not up yet. freaking irritating i swear.but nvm.

♥♥♥dearest,when i said,you look handsem today,i mean it okay.(: im sorie i forget the office wear,i mean your blouse you wore today for your presentation was a gift from me the other time.it slipped my mind cos ive never seen you wearing it cos you din have your presentation yet at that point of time.now i kno why i bought that for you cos remember i thot u still neeed to wear formal wear for your intern? dats why i buy for you(: grey looks good on you.and i loove the shirt.realli(: some of your pictures i took will make me melt over you again for some reason.i dont know why.i like the way you smile and pose whenever i take a picture of you.(: and wen it turn out to be a perfect picture,i cnt help it but to look at it.(: dun play aorund tml okay in sch. will be spending time with you on thurs since im having my btt.followed by a check up for grandma.and the rest of the time with you(: sweet! thanks for always cheering me up and saying positive things to me when im feeling horrible. it means alot to me wen my bf says that.(: i need you and will always do.i love you anwar! thank you so much!

okay......i din realise i was talking way too much,so yah,i shall end tis post now.need some time to rest and do my resume and questions..take care people and enjoy the rest of the week! toodles!

2009-02-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

some how i managed to do some editting to my new layout.im quite satisfied.but not totallly. just need to do one more changes but for now,since my anwar is waiting,i cnt preety much blog yeah. im kinda lazy. and the time now is 11.13pm and i have to like wake up 545 tomorrow? i dun wanna overslept again and be late.so im gonna tuck in preety soon after doing my routine job msging my anwar before going to sleep. as for now, will be busy,so busy=lack of updates.(:

btt is in 3 days time and ive not learn anything yet! dun wanna fail again.pls i wanna get my pdl and prac driving alrdy.oh gosh.will study hard though!(: insyallah can pass. pass TP dpt ipod ehk.haha.okay.double happiness.can drive me ard and get and ipod.cool.so,insyallah you'll pass too the second time ok my anwar! alrite. off to bed. nyte people.(:

2009-02-01T15:27:00.000+08:00

blog under construction!

2009-01-31T00:31:00.003+08:00

currently her blog here is having a maintenance layout.still not satisfied with the layout she has done. due to the block nise pills ive taken,im freaking sleepy now wen its onlie 12.33pm. well dats considered late huh.but yeah its fine with me though.since tml im not schling. still need to do edditting for my blog so ill set it to private for a moment. i might not be able to do it tml,so will see how.gg over to quan's and trace2 house tml with the cliques since they have invited us over for open house smtng like dat?(: gosh.my eyes can bearly open man.

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dear,i hope youll read dis and im sure you do(: i aint perfect,but,i love you.that's wad i promise(: like wad ive said,ive got tons of pictures to upload but not now cos im pretty lazy.mite not even post it but yeah.nvm. will be blogging soon again.after my work is done.in the mean time,i still wan sum things in mind.at least for now? please? my list of stuff.(: alrite.till den,good nite people and yah,have a great weekend.(:

maxi dress
tube dress
that sandals
that heels
new gold angklet,bracelet and necklace
tote/sling beg
black shoe
topssssss
that pants
that dress

more of everything please?(: that for NOW. thank you

love

2009-01-26T19:52:00.003+08:00

i haven been updating much now.one part of me is freaking lazy to update.the other half of me wants to update preety much.if only sumone can help me type out wad i wanted to type out that will be great! (:

like ive said,ive been preety much busy with my own life. busy with family,school and boyfie.(: ive been treasuring all the people in my life.im greatful that they wrill always be der in my life.never once will dey critise me. dey will always love me for being who i am. and for some reason now, im missing my girlfrens alot. amy,murr,qin and yana. wen can we meet darls? i swear im missing you people like mad. i miss going crazy with you gerls. and suddenly i remember the crazy times we had over in secondary sch.(: 2010 is coming and i hope u gerls still remember our promises we kept. 2010 june.ryte?(: apart from them,i miss my sg mates. iffah,j and farhah.its been a while since we last meet.and i mean it. so long already. i hope we can meet soon.

moving on,dearest,im sorry i cnt foollow you todae. thanks cos ur aunt asked me along but unfortunately i cnt follow cos i dun wan grandma to be alone and shes not feeling well. but you always know me best and you din get mad at all.(: i love you hearts! dun forget our date tml with cik farah and cik wan okay. movie date. im glad that my family have been loving you all these 2 years plus of us knowing each other.and im glad you mummy love me too and now followed by your aunty(: im loving the care and concern thay have given me and my family have given you.(: insyallah, like wad ur mummy say,we would be together till god knows wen(: i love you with all my heart.

i think i really must start saving instead of spending too much. i swear ive been spending hndreds of dollars.and im kinda broke now? gosh all thanks to my itchy hands and itchy eyes! gosh. sorie dear shud head your advice yah. dam! well its okay i still have money to spend though. sumone still ows me money. hope will get it soon.(: im totally in love with the show suci. been watching every single dae. without fail. hehe. the grandma is freaking funny and bayu is basically hot. freaking hot! indo shows are great! cinta fitri will be out soon. though the season 3 have been showing over at the indo channel. but im lazy to watch. sesasi will only show the second season. dun know wen! well,i think im gonnna change my blog layout.since got ntg to do.(: and cik wati,help me with my resume okay! asap so i can send out to hotels!(: thanks. im loving my lyfe(:

enjoy your holidae people!

2009-01-23T21:37:00.005+08:00

9 hours ago,we've marked the 27th month of being in love.

looking forward for the 36th month.

will be looking forward for that.

in the mean time,enjoy being in love.

happy chinese new year to all my celebrating cny.(:

2009-01-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

ive been neglecting my blog for quite some time alrdy.

like wad ive said over at my previous post,ill be dam busy when sch starts.

sch was awesome.and my weekends was wae preety much awesome cos i had splendid time with my dearest Khai.its always been great being with him.but we managed have diff view in bedok mac due to sum stuff.i shall not mention cos its personal to me and i dun wish to drag dis thing further.but me and dear is fine.i think talking is the best way for me and dear now.me and him decided that we shall forgo dat childish act of dat person and decided to move on.we're all grown ups now.so we're letting it go for good.(:

i wont be mitting him that much dis weekdaes,cos dear will be busy doing his project work.and i still haven finish up my resume.i swear im having a hard time here.just had my foto taken for resume just now.had to have both hard copy and soft copy.doing resume is not easy after all i swear.still nid to do my application letters.gosh.the more i wanna start work,the more im gonna miss sch.i love my classmates alot.the binding we have is just wae awesome.but will be looking forward for the class chalet.

tml i think will be having breakfast with tracy ferst before we're off to sch.thurdae,my cliques will be going out with tracy as well,gg off to jurong and den ct hall den go beach road to have tulang!(: dear,it suckks wen i dun get to mit you but im sure we will have fun on saturday.baby's birthday(: 3 dae's and shasha and khai will turn 27th month.how time flies.i shall upload pictures maybe the next time,but i swear idk wen.supper busy with sch and im freaking tired now.

dear,i hope ive made your dae today by appearing at your sch and hand you over a meal for you.im scared you din get to eat wen ure busy with your projects.but i got your fav mega macspicy.im sure youre happy with dat. idk why i feel so attached with you.mcm isi dgn kuku.youre always in my heart.and i swear i love the wae u look over at web cam just now.take care handsome boyfie(: youre loved by me. the feeling inside my heart is ermmm...cnt be describe! really.but it feels great.loo forward to dis week ok baby.(:

life has been great.put away the past and im here living my life to the fullest.till now,ill still remember the song i live my life for you,that you dedicate for me,2 years 3 months go.thanks.(:

2009-01-16T21:01:00.006+08:00

me:hey dear,i wan the x1.freaking nice fone sia.
him:i told its darn nice from last time but u refuse to hear wad i say.
me:i din know.now i think its georgeous!freaking nice!i wanna get it!
him:dun la u just save ur fone.got no money also
me:(sense sum jealousy)i dun care,wen i go for attachment or smnthg,i wanna save up and buy i dun care.
him:dun larr..idiot sia u...

dun be mad at me if i get the fone ferst okay? u can always see mine,or while waiting for ns sweets,go find urself a job and save the money up okay>(: heheh.dun worry im not so bad though i smell jealosy from you! :p
yes,as for now,dis is our eye candy for both me and him.freaking excited and we find dat dis fone is freaking cool.i swear! can i plaese have dis? oh god help me save up my money please!(: sch has been great.the class always have that bonding between us though there are diff attitudes in the class. i love dhm april 07A.(: they will always be loved by me(: we're planning a class chalet that im definately looking forward for. things seems to pass quickly like ive said and its been two years.and now,all busy doing resume and finding hotels to employ us ferst(; i love dhm april 07A(:

i wan X1 please!(: today has been such an iritating dae for me.i swear i hate the bubblr tea shop.despite dat,im still contented. (: my cliques,stance,tracy and especially khaian my dear has made my dae.(: mirra,like i say, u can call me chacha.its fine with me.no worries.(; i saw dearest lyn saved my name under chacha.haha.now,lots of people know that name of mine.haha.oh shit.hehe. yes dayahrez,apple is me.hehe.no worries,many people got the same name so im not suprised that u got confused!(: so since you know its me link me up baby! i would love to make frens with u.and i hope to make more new frens in this 2009. to my lovely gfs,im missing you.(:

despite the x1 i wanted,i still have sum other things i wan which is a need also for me(: i guess.

that beg that i wan which can fit A4
the grey jeans though i have one alrdy
the another grey jeans i saw just nw
a normal jeans,blue but kinda faded style
isseymiyake or escada? issey miyake.(:
raulph lauren romance
X1 still the top listed ones.(: (dreams dat can cum true)
dat polo tee.(:

so many stuff adding on to that list of mine.grr.left with so little money though.sucks.have a great weekend people.enjoy your weekend.(:

2009-01-15T20:01:00.004+08:00

depressed.
fats that runs over the body.thigh,tummy and arm.
yes,cos it looks freaking ugly and she hates it when ever she wann buy clothes she dun look the same like she used to.getting over it.tons of ways she has tried but sumhow pointless.just want he old her back

i wanna lots of stuff.i swear i wan.been looking ard for the stuffs that i wanted online only sum i mange to find but no others.i wanna shp like hell.buy what i wan.wear wad i wan without feeling irritated over the body shape though he said it was okay.some stuff i wana get and i swear i wan.and sum thing i wanna do.

maxi dress(satin typee)
sneakers
black shoes(one more)*
tube dress
that dress cum skert.
more shoes cum ladies shoes
jeans aint skinny jeans*
belts various types
more dress.any versions of dresses will do
pemudas
black handbeg
sling beg that fits alot of stuff
cotton on tops
shades
jacket cum hoody?
hair to be rebonded again

i guess der's it.even if there is,i bet i cnt remember.as usual my worst illness ever..

2009-01-12T22:19:00.003+08:00

ferst day of the last semester was alrite.it seems quite weird to see everyone in their own clothes.yes SHATEC has brought in new rules of taking away the sch uni we are wearing previously. i miss my classmates and my clique.dam happy to mit dem and sum of them do change. tml is sch again.im so scared to go sch now adays. it seems that sch is like endong prettty soon i swear. mentors have been like asking us to do resume and stuff. find hotels and dun be picky to choose hotels cos its like the recession year. dam. sumhow im pretty scared. scared of the real world. gosh. feeling of becomming an adult and holding more responsibilities is freking me out.

more needs dat are supposed to be fuifil.haish. seriously,no fun at all. looking out for universities that i can go after thish. actually i wan.but sum part of me dun wanna continue studying for god dam knows what reason. seriously. been searching for bachelor in hotel and resort management. bachelor of commerce majoring in hotel and resort management and marketing management. bachelor in business hons in tourism and hospitality majouring in events management. wtf! so many! i swear and im kinda interested in like all. but i only wan 1 year to have my bachelor.can? if not kis goodbye to my bachelor. i will think again during my attachment. seriously.

alright im freaking tired! sch tml waking up at 545am.have a good day people!(: dear's sister got 17 points for o level! good luck for future! (: miss yah dear!

future is waiting for me.