sometimes we feel like growing up preety fast.
to finish studying,getting a job,more money on hand,livin in ur own house,having a family and etc.
i bet that what people wan in the world.
at least,u think most of the people in the worrld todae want it.
for me, i personally feel that i dun wanna grow.
i wanna stay small.
be a small gerl whom i use to be so i dun nid to face with these issues.
growing up.
be a young adult.
having a job.
having money.
a bigger responsibilities.
trusting people for having your things.
i dont want all that.
cox sumtimes,when you do the wrong step to some things you do,u'll regret.
u dont know what to do.
and you dun know whether the things you do are right.
and when you make a decision,people will interupt.
people will hate you fer a certain decision you make.
and some people will be happy.
but trust is a very big word to use in the world.
a big word yet a dirty one to use.
cos once you break that trust,people will not trust u again.
never.
seriously,i dont wanna grow up.
ive mde a decision and gave sumbody sum things that must be return.
but idk whether the promise given will be useful.
it happen too fast.
i tought i did some thinking,but why it seems that my heart is aching?
why must i bother about what my family will say and wad will my dearest say?
will he support me?
will people hate me?
will people get angry with me?
will they?
will grandma be okay?
i hate this.
i should not be going thru these fer my age.
im too young for this.
at the point of time,when im supposed to play and study,i had to go thru emotional feeling.
now,wen i asume im gonna have a good life ahead,i hope,im going thru this.
why am i growing up too fast?
why cnt i have a normal family a mother,father and siblings to share my happiness with? why?
why must i lead this life?
be responsible fer my own actions?
pay my own sch fees.
take care of my own allowance?
buy my own household stuff?
why?
i cnt take it.
i hate it.
i wish mum is here.
i wish.
i dont wanna grow up yet.
i dont.
